LOVE

  It’s been quite a long time since I have written something on my blog page. They say there is a phase in everyone’s life where one gets lost in chaos. Probably I was going through the same for past few months. It took me months to find myself back again. After lots of travel and work, I finally took a long vacation just to be at home and do nothing.

              Now that I wanted to start the “writing” again, I asked my friend who is a writer to give me a topic on which I can start writing.

              She immediately said “Love”.

              This is a topic on which millions of people write.

              I said “Can I have a different topic please?” She said “No”.

              Yes, the young couples at malls, streets do make me notice them. I smile and wish Bless them within myself. I do have set of friends who are happily married to their Love, few eagerly waiting for their love, and few who are working out on the relationship to take it towards marriage. So the ultimate purpose ends up in marriage where both can live happily together forever and be there for each other through thick and thin.

  I am a soul who recently welcomed late 20’s on my last birthday and have limited year left to reach 30.Still Single, The topic love pisses me off these days because I miss being with my man who has still not turned up. The wait seems longer. But true that, no one can escape from bonding of Love. Even the most serious to most crazy character of humans, have to swim through this bonding. Afterall, love is the only source because of which the world exists.

 Now that he is not here yet, (I believe he might have taken a wrong route and is in a wrong direction who needs to get on right direction to reach me or probably is on his way) let me just assume that someday he will be right next to me making my wish come true. Sometimes I just wish if he had crossed my path by now, but then maybe he is late with a reason.

He has taught me to spend days without him around me 24*7.

He has taught to take a stand for myself in whatever I believe without any support.

He has taught me to love life the way it is and to love myself first the way I am.

He has taught to try my hands on everything that I want to try exploring –May it be writing, reading, drawing, travelling etc. etc.

He has taught me to explore the whole world alone being a strong woman.

He has taught me how to deal with wrong people and how to appreciate the right ones.

He has taught me everything a woman can do without a man by her side.

He has made me strong every day.

Today I have learnt to hide my tears and say “I am alright” with a big smile. I have learnt to be thankful for little that I have and to appreciate people in my life. I have learnt to put all broken pieces together and get up again. I have learnt to bring smile on peoples face and be there for them even when they least expect. I have learnt change is obvious. I have learnt emotions can bring you down if you let them to. I have learnt to believe in Destiny and I know that when it’s your time to meet me, nothing in this universe can stop it.

So my Love, wherever you are, I would want to let you know that I am waiting with my arms wide open to welcome you. I know it’s worth the wait but I am scared that this strong woman may also break down someday waiting for you to turn up. Make it faster before I give up my hopes. I can’t wait to hug you and let me in your arms. I want to get cuddled by you until my heart goes calm. I want to blow a kiss on your forehead and brush your hair slowly every morning when I wake up by your side. Single cup of coffee every morning doesn’t make me feel fresh these days. I need you to share a cup of coffee with me. Come soon, so that lets start celebrating Life together. J

Parallel Universe

A different world, a different universe. It’s a land of colors.I sat in a white cloud high up in the light blue sky. I was sitting on a cloud. The cloud was moving slowly and I was immersed in admiring the color of sky. The cloud stopped in front of a white dome shaped castle and I got down. I looked around. Tiny little blue birds, size of my thumb were flying around with a sweet humming sound. Bright little glittery balls were bouncing up and down all over. I smiled and walked ahead.

 After walking many steps I stood in front of a big door. The door had its own magnificent design. I went close and was immersed in observing the artistic design. I saw “HAPPINESS” was only word written on a big door. The door was completely white similar to the color of milk. I stood infront of the door with my mouth wide open. The door opened automatically. I saw left and right. I could see no one. I just ran inside very quickly. To my surprise there was no one inside. It was a total calm place with literally nothing. I ran back to the door again but it was closed. I tried hard to open the door but it went in vain. I sat down disappointed. After few minutes I got up and tried opening the door again but it dint help. I then turned back started walking ahead. The place was very silent and calm. If a needle was dropped down I bet I could have heard the sound.

             After walking for more than half an hour I saw another big door. This time the door was already open. The door was highly classic design and was brown in color, I went in. On both the sides stood line of strange people. They were dressed up like they were from an ancient ancestor’s age. A small crown on each person’s head, a heavy metal covered their body and everyone had a round shaped antique piece held in their hand. As I entered, these people on both ends bowed down their head at once. I was surprised and continued walking.

              I reached the third door. I have never seen a door as beautiful as this in my life. It had all the colors I had seen so far in my life. It was just amazing. It had no design but only colors. I tried opening the door but it dint work. I pushed it hard, the door dint open. I put all my strength and pushed the door with great and full force this time and the door opened at once. I went inside. I could hear light music, see beautiful butterflies, bright shining stars falling down all over and melting on the ground. I saw the balloons of heart shape in Red color around me in the air. I was happy and I felt good. I caught the shining stars in my hand and it melted in my hand. My hands felt the cold tickling feeling.

               Suddenly I heard a voice, a voice that was powerful and commanding. A voice that was firm and a voice that one wanted to listen over and over again. The voice whispered “You have crossed three doors of Life that everyone always wants. First door which was complete white and the place where you saw nothing was place of PEACE. The second door where people bent down when you entered was place of RESPECT. And the final door where you felt very happy and extremely good was place of LOVE. The ultimate powerful emotion in every human’s life and the emotion from which no human can escape from. Your LIFE is now complete! “The voice stopped and I stood there blank.

               Immediately a strong breeze passed by and I couldn’t stand in the same place.I was blown away with the wind. “Thud” I fell down. I opened my eyes and I was in the same crazy daily world, I had fallen down on the ground from my bed. I searched for my phone and saw the time. I was late to my office. I smiled at the thought that i named as "Parallel Universe" and there I went ahead for my usual routine.

               

Thoughts that flow !!

      My thoughts reflect the past, my thoughts witness my present and at times tiny little hopes of future are captured.

                I am a day dreamer big time. I can sit for hours together doing nothing but only get so lost in my own thoughts. Sometimes I do wish I would have used this time in something fruitful then I answer myself “I don’t have to rule the world now, so it’s OK”.

                My early morning takes my thoughts for a walk through my memory lane. Every morning I go for a walk to a park nearby. This practice started just to give my mornings a fresh start watching nature and to feel the morning breeze. A light music, my favorite shoes and a jacket, hands in my pocket and there I go. I have to walk a little distance to reach the park. I have to cross few lanes of big and small houses as well. Few things that I observe daily is I see a lady splashing water in front of her house door when I go for a walk and by the time I finish my rounds in the park and return back, beautiful design of “Rangoli” would be ready to welcome in front of the door. My thoughts just took me to my past where my granny did the same and we little ones would stand next to her and watch in excitement. She would do it so perfect and fast. As I walk further I see a young boy (probably in his 12- 16 years age) who stops his cycle at every house he crosses , picks up a news paper from the bunch at his cycle basket and throws it in front of every house. Trust me; I always make sure I don’t miss watching him as he throws newspaper to first floor, second floor and also third floor standing in the same position of the road. The newspaper rolls high up in the sky and falls perfect. “Dude, you can be a basketball champ” my thoughts said to me when I watched him. His throw never gets missed every day. My thoughts reminded me of a friend who had once told me “I don’t care that I am going through a bad time because I come from a background where I have lived my life as a newspaper boy. So today if I am kicked out of my job I am bold enough to lead my life independently finding a new way”. This thought made me smile. I continue my walk and I see a shopkeeper opens his tiny shop every day morning. Keeps few racks of groceries outside the shop, makes ready a small bench for customers, hangs few magazines in front of the shop. My thoughts took me to my childhood days where my uncle who owned a shop used to do this every morning. I used to visit him only on summer vacations. He did make me and my cousins sit in the shop. All we had to do was know the price, collect the money and return proper change and give them what they asked. I entered the park and I see old couple walking in the park, few young folks running and little exercise. Adding on, I do see few little kids who come to the park early morning to play see saw, swing. I see the joy and excitement in every kids face when the swing and see-saw goes up and down. My thoughts reflected my past where me and my sister used to finish our homework real fast just to join our friends at the park to play the swing.

                I finish my walk, continue my daily routine and off I go to office. I always prefer a window seat when I travel in the bus. Because I always love to observe the world around me. I see a group of little kids with uniform playing on the road side while their parents are holding their school bags waiting for the school bus. They were playing some game clapping their hands. My thoughts took me down the memory lane of my school days where we sang rhyming words and clapped our hands. I did try to recollect the words fully and realized I have forgotten few words. My bus stopped being stuck at traffic and my thoughts started waving around my present routine of office,cooking,meetings to attend etc.To see positive  side of my present I took my thoughts to my favorite books awaiting in my bookshelf that I would continue  to read, movie that’s planned for weekend. The bus started moving slowly by then and there I see a beautiful young couple who held their hand. The guy asked the girl to stand after him and then carefully looked around and crossed the door holding her hand tight. My thoughts went into my future. I don’t stop my thoughts when it shows me hopes of future (which may or may not happen). I let my thoughts swim. By now the bus had started moving on the flyover and the morning breeze near the window seat brushed my face, I tilted my head slightly towards right and my eyes closed. My thoughts continued to swim into future.

      I looked into his eyes and he smiled at me, I put my hand on his head and brushed his hair and he smiled again. He puts an arm around my shoulder and kisses my cheeks. I blush. He pulls me towards him and cuddles me in his arms. I feel safe forever. I feel I have the whole world with me. After being in his arms to my heart’s content I rest my head on his shoulder. He kisses my forehead. I feel I am the happiest person. Suddenly I feel the jerk and my head is hurt. My thought of future now brings me to present. I was in the bus and the last stop had arrived. I get down and my final thought says “Whoever you are and wherever you are, though I am unsure of your existence and unsure that you are on the way to reach me, I will hold you tight in my thoughts forever”. 

The other day when it rained!

It is bright sunny day! Unbearable heat, deep summer making us thirsty every now and then. Me and my roommates were walking towards our destination. We had to wait for an auto. After a little while, one of my roommates said – “Hey, Can we please find a place to hide ourselves from sun”. I immediately pointed towards a small shelter on the extreme corner of the road. It was a small sandal repair shop. An old man sat inside that tiny shelter whose job was to repair the shoes. This little shed had a small roof on top that extended a little in the front that could let few more people to stand under the roof shelter.

 My roommate replied – “There, No way! Let’s find a better place”.

 I questioned –“Why, what’s wrong?”

She answered – “Look at that, small shelter, not good enough”

My thoughts reflected back to that day when this small shelter was saver for me!

“ The other day when it rained” – Early morning was just like any other normal day in this city.Alarm rings and there I wake up and get ready and off to office.But the day was not normal in the evening.Unpredictable weather had started the game.It started to rain that evening.It was raining cats and dogs and whole city was in a mess,people not ready to welcome rains and were without umbrella.There I was in the bus.I had no clue if this rain would stop before I reach my place. I was just hoping it will. It dint.I arrived my stop and it was time to get down from the bus, the moment I got down, rain was so heavy that it dint allow me to walk even two steps. I saw my left and then right , all I could see that moment was this small shelter , yea! The same sandal repair shop.I went to this shop and I stood there right under this small roof.This small shelter protected me from getting drenched.Now within two seconds I see a young guy running towards me and occupying the same shelter.He couldn’t go ahead in his bike and had to stop.After a while another gal joins in,She makes a call to her mom and expects her mother  reach this shop with an umbrella to pick her up! Then comes a small girl half already drenched, We all three try to move a little closer to give this little girl some place to fit in under this shelter. Now that was the maximum limit this shelter could hold.Old man who is the owner of the shop said – “Feel good,sorry I don’t have more place to make u all comfortable” . Few among us said –“That’s ok” . I said “This is the best place,Thanks”. The guy next to me smiled!

                Heavy rain continued,wind was blowing so hard like it was angry,rain drops were pouring continuously like it would never stop again.Gals mother had come with an umbrella to pick her daughter.Mother scolds her daughter for not carrying an umbrella and simultenously  continues to wipe her daughters wet head.I watch and remember my mom.There was a smile on my face at that moment.They walk away. After a while a car stops infront of us and picks the small gal.I stand and continue to see the water splashes,traffic jam,shaking trees etc.

                After  waiting for 45 minutes straight I make a choice to wrap my head with dupatta and make a move.Rain had reduced slightly showing a little mercy on me. I started to run and reached my destination.Walk distance was just 10 mins to my place from this stop but rain was at its peak not allowing me even to take a small step. Ah ! If this small shelter was not on my head may be I had no clue where to go the other day ! I was thankful to that small roof on my head the other day!

                Here today I looked at my roommate and answered – “Sometimes small shelter makes huge difference.I would stand right under it,Follow me if you want to” and there I stood ,so did they!

Relating this to Life – Sometimes we meet people who would support us or give us just a minute of happiness .That minute of happiness would have mattered to us a lot.That minute of happiness would be the only reason why we were happy the whole day! We miss to notice them and we forget to thank them or may be sometimes we forget the person itself who had once made us feel good and happy. Notice them and now may be it’s your turn to make them feel good J

Ask yourself - Is this 'ME'?

This blog is a little about my life, where I would crib about the way things were going around with me for couple of months. I was with a comfortable, fun loving team around me at office. They kept me lively and happy everyday! I don’t mean they dedicated their time taking good care of me but the team itself was so freaking good that anybody in the team enters the office and goes for a cup of coffee at the beginning of the day together with the whole group, one would definitely forget what was he or she worrying about. All individuals were uniquely crazy and every individual put together rocked, winning hearts of millions. Touch wood!

  It’s always said Life is a journey and millions of people just pass by you in this journey. Some people make the journey wonderful. These set of people are those who made my journey wonderful and kept building up my hopes, confidence every now and then. Probably they are the only reason that I am smiling today! But days pass by and change is mandatory. I cannot expect to work with the same set of people anywhere I go, nor can they (especially in IT industry).It was time for a change for everybody. People got fit into different organizations starting at the beginning of last year. Every month of last year kept me involved in organizing back to back farewells! We are all still connected even today but departed due to different organizations plus locations and can’t hang out on a daily basis 24*7 with each other.

I fell into a new role with a new team. It’s always hopeless to move out of your comfort zone and the same happened to me.I found it a little hard initially to cope up with new role and team. I kept missing my old team very often. The new team had lot of negative vibes pushing my way. I was losing my confidence and also it was bringing down my hopes. I pushed myself very hard to get on track, but felt helpless. Along with this, my personal life was losing track, I had some people whom I was with talking about my attitude and having problems with the way I am. Now I found myself as a very disturbed person,living a routine time table life, not doing what I wanted to do but doing what others wanted from me.I dint even remember when was the last time I stepped out to a roadside tea stall,when was the last time I had been for a long walk in the cold breeze,when was the last time I ran around my work place with crazy talks etc. I questioned myself  “Is this  ‘ME’ ?” The answer was a obvious “NO”. When all things shoot at you at one single shot, you feel down especially when you are not a kind of person who would expect a shoulder to rest on incase of problems. You deal with your problems all alone and that needs a lot of self push. It makes you stronger and each learning will teach a lesson. At the same time, I had my dearest ones who were going through worst phase of their life and expected me to be their strength. Now may be this was an add on for me to force myself to be more strong and push myself back to normal. To serve them happiness, I had to first find my happiness back! Else there was no point in me being their strength!

I had to first build up my confidence and bring up my hopes. That started by finding positive energy in my new team. I recognized the set of people in my new team where I found positiveness and avoided the negative side. This was my first step. Second was I started dealing with myself more than dealing with the ones who had problem with me for the way I am. Their presence dint matter to me anymore. My emotions towards them was made to “null” which means that there is no chance of hurting myself anymore in future with these people. I fell and picked something up! First time when I fell I had picked up “Writing” and this time it is “Drawing”. Third step was I stayed away from networking, like the most famous whats app, fb etc and i found all time in the world for me and only myself. I started knowing more about myself, also learning more about myself. I found the real happiness starting from buying chocolates for little kids, giving more time to parents on call(since they stay far away),helping the ones who expect, sometimes even being a silent support with million empty words!  A little struggle and there I found myself back again – Now did I forget to mention that writing this blog has actually made my heart lighter ;-) Feels awesome! –

 Happiness is all around, sometimes you just tend to lose yourself in this fast phase of life. It’s you who have to notice it, Talk to yourself and start finding your happiness in every tiny little thing that you do. I am sure you will thank yourself for being you! – So deep within ask yourself a question “is this ‘ME’?”

Innocence –who can be the best on it except kids ?

                 I am pathetic in decision making.When I am confused I just leave the decision open and avoid thinking about it. Recently it happened that I had to take a decision that would be major in my life. I had to give an answer and my answer would change my life along with other person’s as well. I dint know what my heart wants and what my mind says. OR may be I dint want to listen!!! I have still left the decision open, leaving it on time, being prepared to accept the way it comes to me. Not sure if I will regret later on. Basically when this thought of deciding was running on my mind for days together I was trying to distract myself in all possible ways .As usual the first thing I did was jotting down few words which dint help, then reading novel which dint seem to be interesting anymore, going out for a walk where roads seemed too long, listening to all sorts of music which sounded pathetic and then finally sleeping for hours where my eyes were adamant not to doze off. I gave up and started working for extra hours at office, this one helped slightly though not completely.

              During this phase, it so happened that I had to travel to my grandparents place. This is a place where I have spent all my summer holidays, Millions of memories to cherish here. My bro was getting married and hence the entire family had a get together. I had been to this small town after 4 long years! Had never been there once I moved to city called Bangalore. Never realized days were running so fast. Now that I was seeing all my cousins together after long time I realized how things have changed with time. I had now lost count of all my niece and nephews. There were many new additions to my family. The ones with whom I had spent my days playing around -fightingwere responsible people with their own sweet family ;) Few little ones whom I cuddled when they were young had now grown up taller than me and they now shared their girlfriend, boyfriend stories with me! My closest cousins were now husband-wife and few others were mom-dad J - So I took some time to understand my modified large family hierarchy cycle. We had kids of all age in our family at this moment!!  And  with my confused state of mind I preferred to spend my time with Kids , I enjoyed being with them and they enjoyed being with me !!!!

                One little niece sticked on to me continuously since she met me, At first she held my hand then came to me and sat on my lap. We had to travel to another place for wedding ceremony and this little gal sat on my lap from the beginning of journey not willing to join her mother. I grabbed her attention showing her the world outside the window. Kids are always excited. Each thing in the world looked new to them. They have their own logic and imagination and they link it the way they want it. And here we are, youngsters cribbing about all wrong things that happens with us. We fail to notice the beauty of world around us. Its better we learn the childhood lessons all over again from these tiny tots. The journey was long and my niece was now sleepy. She rested her small head on my left arm and dozed off without realizing. Now she was probably in her dream world. Each time the vehicle took a turn or brakes were applied I protected her with my right arm so that she wouldn’t hit her head on the window pane. I was wondering Kids are so innocent that they would ideally love or hate any person at very first go and we grownups add hundreds of if’s and but’s before we actually trust a relation.

                 Now coming on to the hyper-active kids of today, I have one of my most fav nephew, 4 years old. I love him for all his mischief. His parents are invited regularly to school by Teacher to complain on him. 

He wants me around when he would want me to open the refrigerator door for him and to hold him in my arms to reach the refrigerator top to flick chocolates since he is too little to reach it.Couple of things in the house are missing since this guy has the habit of throwing things out of window. When this guy is angry he simply walks out of the gate saying he will never come back. Little does he know how to go further on the same road ;) – Basically the innocence of being straight in what he wants is shown up. Hardly these kids know the meaning of anger, sorry, revenge!

              
    I was totally involved with these little ones for four days and I actually forgot what I was worrying about. I cannot describe every kid with whom I spent the four days since it will go long into pages but Trust me, Kids are the best examples to make someone smile, and you get lost in their innocence. Though they don’t know what’s running in your mind, their every action around you takes you to a different world.
 

Its a New day tomorrow ..!

We often say – “Things change” – so do people ;) If you scratch your head to find a reason for change, you hardly find it!

Inspite of being a strong person at heart,being a person with  least expectations, there might have been some situations in each one of your life where accepting the change and digesting the present fact have been very difficult for you.Sometimes none would be able to guide you out of such situations.You feel lost, angry and helpless.You realize the sinking feeling.

If you ask me why one feels so difficult to accept the present I really don’t know.Elders would say – “Every change happens for good”. I have never understood what does the word good mean when they say this!.They also say – “Everything will be alright soon”. This is other way of saying – “You would feel better once you have accepted the change”, Smart elders and we are the fools :P Ultimately every person needs to fight their own battle –all Alone !

For me things keep changing often – Everytime I feel I have reached a stage where I actually fit in somewhere, I suddenly find myself in an unfamiliar place again.I convince myself or rather I would say I fool myself by blaming everthing on destiny :P

Life is never balanced,never easy!Same way change is not always acceptable but do you really have a choice ?! Many a times “NO”

You cannot question “why” because you will never find an answer.All you have to know is a day just goes on, and a day ends. A new day would start again tomorrow !

When was the last time you made someone happy !

 Nah ! Here I am not talking about impressing  “xyz”  by gifts! Let me convey the message quick and easy!

Just imagine,that you are out with a big group of your friends  on a great trip ! How do we place ourselves among the crowd!? Ofcourse, we plan a trip to relax ourselves ,to see new places and make sure we enjoy it to the fullest .Thats what even I would do.Have fun,play,dance,sing,pose  crazily for the photos,love the sight of beautiful places etc.All these days any  trip to me meant only this. But recently  I found out that a trip could be, more than “Just Fun”.

Do  you see this ?

A friend of you,might be lost in his/her thoughts and looks disturbed

Did you happen to notice this?-This friend of you might be part of the fun,talks,laughter among you but yet completely lost.Go,sit next to this friend and talk,Give a hug, Make him/her feel better.How does it feel when the same friend says – “There’s  a deep pain within me,which I remember often,But now I know there are more colours to Life and I am missing out on it, Thanks”.

A friend of you might be standing far away, watching you when you are on a high ride/water etc.-
Did you happen to notice this?-
This friend of you is too scared of heights. Who is happy to see others enjoying the high rides , Want to try but yet too scared of heights.

Get this friend,hold the hand and take him/her to the ride along with you, Ask this friend to trust you,nothing worse is gonna happen.How does it feel when the same friend tries the ride for the first time with fear and then comes back to you,hugs you and says “That was not as scary as I thought, Thanks buddy.!”

A friend of you might be a new one in the group

Did you happen to notice this? – 
This friend of you is a little uneasy because , all are new to him/her.Trying to mingle but needs  little more time.

Be with this friend,interact,get him/her involved in all your talks,Make him/her  laugh.

How does it feel when the same friend says – “ I had a nice day. Now that I know all of you now,it doesn’t  feel  like I had not known you before”

This  blog was written only with respect to a trip,Who knows , there may be many such people who badly need someone to make them happy and smile though in a small way !- May it be your own friend,loved one, a person sitting next to you at office, or a person who just waved you a hi ;)

If you happen to notice, then you know what you have to do ! - Its worth making someone happy and making  someone SMILE !

Do you remember when was the last time you made someone happy? – If  “YES” ,then there is going to be a next time too, Because you know how it feels . If “NO”, then it’s not too late to begin with,because you will know it’s the best feeling to make someone SMILE  though its only  for a moment :)

"A day"- see with difference

Everyday would end before I hardly realize my day has begun. Days just pass whereas I am totally indulged in my busy schedule. Today I wanted my day to be different. I want to see the world around me is what I thought. It’s the same place, the same normal-like day, same roads, same office and same schedule but still with a difference.All I decided to do is watch what’s going on around me in a different manner just for a day and thus began my day today

Every day when I go to office, I would sit in my cab with full-on music with eyes closed (feeling the lyrics of songs) and head rested on the seat or the second option would be I would be busy flipping pages of novel that I read .Today for a change I only put on my head set , played  light music .Today I kept the window of my cab open. I was sitting right near to the window. The cool breeze was making me feel the chill of weather. And as decided I was watching everything around me through the window. My cab had to put a break at one place due to traffic signal. There I saw a lady standing with her two kids on the street (a baby gal n a boy).Both kids were in their school uniform neatly dressed with a tie and shoes and a two sided bag on their back plus their lunch bag. They were waiting for school van I suppose. The boy was elder and the gal was younger .she looked like nursery going and the boy probably High school, I assumed. I was in the bus so all i could see was only the actions. The young gal was cranky abt going to school .Her face expression said it all. Mother talks to her son. Her son nods his head to what his mom told him and then immediately her elder son kisses his sister on her forehead and whispers something. The baby gal smiles. I wanted to see more of it but my cab started moving ahead. Probably mom gave some idea to her son to bring her daughter out of cranky mood is what I thought.

As my cab was moving ahead I saw a lady with uniform cleaning the roads, pushing all the fallen leaves n dust  on the road away with broom ...It looked like that was her daily duty and she would be paid for it. I also saw a van of school kids all in school uniform...I peeped into the van. This was the best, as I saw two kids in deep sleep in the van. One kid was snoring with mouth open. Among other kids three kids were playing among themselves with their hands, talking to each other .The other kid was with book open mugging up something. One more boy was busy looking outside the window. He looked at me all of a sudden. I smiled and waved him bye. He smiled too but no bye. May be he was too shy to wave a bye or maybe his parents might have warned not to be too friendly with strangers in a city which is actually good.

There we go, our cab stuck in between traffic. People were fed up waiting for traffic to get cleared. Frustration was seen on their face but I don’t know i was totally chilled out n all happy. All these tiny things that I was watching were making me happy. 

Now I could see a building construction that was going on through the window .How they load cement pull it up, and then unload the cement in it and again the process continues. Next inside my cab I could see a gal trying to pick eye lash fallen on her frens cheek n give it in her frens hands. Simultaneously, I could see people getting down their vehicles going at the side and bending down to get a peep of traffic as to when the traffic might get cleared. I could read frustration of waiting, on few people’s face.I observed a guy with his friend behind him on bike (He was calm probably was the only guy who was chilled out among many around who were totally frustrated of traffic) my cab moved a little front n now it stood next to another bus. Now i could see a gal in deep sleep inside the other bus near the window. I thought lucky gal who got fourty five extra mins to sleep in the bus bcos of traffic. ;) There was another gal in the same bus playing some game in her cell. There was a cartoon n some bridge kind of bars. All she had to do was make the cartoon jump over that bridge, one bridge after one...I could see she completed two levels and then my bus started moving again.

It started raining. The moment it started raining I cud see raindrops on my window n later it had covered all over the window pane. The lady who was in front seat of me closed the window as it started raining. I wanted to open it. When it started raining heavily i did open the window. I put my hand out. Tried to collect the rain drops but it’s difficult to do so, collecting rain water drops in hands is not an easy task.The gal who had closed the window turns back n looks at me. I gave her a smile. She could see me stretching both my hands out n playing in the rain...She smiles back at me n shifts to sum other seat.(I thought that was an indication that now I can open the window fully and enjoy the rain)By then the traffic was cleared n slowly my cab starts moving. Now i wanted to put my face out through the window and get it wet and i did it but not completely as i had to be aware of my one n only one head. Could not take a risk on that .Also that Wipro’s tiny little work was dependent on this head now. ;) Then came my office. Not to forget music was on all the way to keep me full on to observe all this.

I don’t know the reason but I had the best feeling that day. I felt Life is very beautiful and I am missing nothing in it. Every person on this earth can find happiness but just that only few people will happen to see it and rest are too busy looking at the negative side of life day to day. Life comes once, Love it and Live it.

"Paint and brush" the bricks at office ..!!!!

Guys and Gals,


First of all I would like to say this write-up may sound extreemely silly to few of you out there, For a very simple reason that this is just a piece of my happy moment and all it includes is only a paint and a brush.I am sorry if this disappoints you.


It was like any other normal day, as usual woke up late in the morning (as I work in shifts)and my eyes were shocked to see the clock that was displaying time as 10 A.M. I rubbed my eyes hard, hoping that I might have seen the wrong time on the clock and I may have few more hours to sleep.(I am a lazy bug ) But time doesn’t wait for me..It was really five mins past 10 AM and I had to make myself available at the cab pick up point at 11A.M sharp.So one more hour to go!!!!!!! I had to be fast.


There  I put, the Music on, at a high volume.I luv getting ready with  some of my fav songs  on) and  then its  Brush Brush Brush !!! Morning Shower  made  me fresh,all ready  for a New Day.Then its Dress up  !!!!  Its fun to pull out clothes out  of  my  messy wadrobe (For me its not to look my best  or not to fit into a perfect outfit  to office but I just dress up the way I feel happy.I found a  tee and then grabbed a jeans …Was ready in a go… combed my hair !!! Breakfast (I hate to eat  as I stay away from home ,the food  I eat always makes me miss my mom)  So Breakfast will be the only thing that I can keep as an option to skip among all  other morning activities…So its always at the end, I don’t mind skipping my breakfast if its too late.


I made it to the  cab on time and reached my office …Walk towards my tower from the gate is not very short.On my way towards my tower I noticed few painters  painting the  bricks that was kept as an edge across the greenary…They were painting it yellow to all the bricks and then they painted the alternate bricks black so that it looked like the yellow-black combo.I always had an urge to paint(not on the sheet of paper which we usually do during our school days) but on the walls like the real professional wall-painters.Never got a chance .The moment  I saw them, I wanted to join them and do it ,but my friend refused as we were employees. I went to my ODC being disappointed.  


Work kept me busy and engaged. I forgot my eagerness  to paint.It was time for lunch…..I had to go to cafeteria and again I could see these painters doing their job sincerely in the hot sun..This time they had almost completed close to half …But I could notice the pending half left for painting and was wondering If I could get a chance.In between the crowded  employees  I could hardly do it..I was willing to paint but my friend  said “If it was college I would have asked them to give u a chance,But since we are professional employees here ,you better not do this” .


I had my lunch with my buddies and then got stuck up with work again.The same evening my colleague got a call to collect a courier near the gate.I joined my colleague but my intention was mainly to watch these painters and try to grab a chance..On the way towards  the gate I could see three-fourth of painting was done.We went and collected the courier .On our way back I could not resist requesting myself for the paint brush from them.My colleague stood a far off from me, waiting for me  as she found it embarrassing  … I dint give a damn to people who were passing by..I jus was eager to paint ..thats all I knew. I requested the painter  “Can I please paint a little?” .He smiled at me and handed the paint brush and paint to me .I started to paint a block ( among many blocks of bricks).The painter was standing next to me and still smiling.I was too happy to sit and paint.People who were passing by just grinned at me .I continued to paint.Dint realize it until my colleague standing far away screamed “Hey gal !!!!! Have any plans to continue ur work in IT?, If so, then lets go to ODC.Come soon.”Once I completed painting  the entire block with yellow colour I gave the paint brush back in his hands and said a big “Thank you” with a lovely smile .

I completed painting  the entire block with yellow colour and u wont believe how HAPPY I was the entire Day !!!! This  may sound insane as painting jus a little is no biggggggg deal at all but the entire day I had a smile on my face and I could feel the joy from within me.Its just a tiny thing to feel too happy for.May be that’s why we say “Do what you love to do, as it can give u the kind of happiness  that u can feel”.All such small kind of joy means a lot to me anytime anyday. Thanks to the painter who gave me a chance. Never forget that there is  a life behind the busy schedule of attending phone calls and meetings , Give time for yourself  to do things that u love, as life comes only once ,live it to the fullest.

The Feel of RAIN DROPS !

There i was sitting in my cubicle in the ODC  jus like any other normal day.Suddenly the cell  on my desk makes a beep sound.I move my eyes away from my computer to  glance at my cell for a second.I could see i had received a message.With least interest i just try to see the senders name bcos usually i get only advertising messages very often.But to my surprise the message sender was my friend.She sits in the next cubicle to me.Before i opened the message i just stand up to peep into her cubicle.She was missing on her desk.I wondered what the message was about. I opened the message and it read "come outside,It may rain now."Not a second thought and within a moment my system was locked and there i was standing  outside my ODC near the lake view.The cool breeze,the cloudy weather,and many ppl waiting there desparately for it to drizzle.sounds funny but that is how it is here...because the temperature here is more than 40 degree everytime and rain is just like guest appearance here most of the times.

I too was one among the many  glancing at the sky.It was a weekday so few people went back to their ODC once they finished drinking a cup of coffee/tea.Few more people were out talking over the cellphone and hardly noticed the clouds or may be were not interested.Work was more important anyday.But not the same for me,i was still standing there outside looking at the sky..I could see the clouds moving and the sky all set to pour some drops.A guy who made his time outside for sometime  saw me standing there eagerly and said "Nice weather rite?",I said "yes". He stood  there for sometime watching the climate.He also said "Hope this climate continues"...I added saying "yes,hopefully".I was desperate for  rain drops.It was more than 15 minutes now and the crowd reduced...People lost patience and again went back to their work.The guy too moved away and before leaving he just told me "enjoy".I said "sure".May be he could read the excitement on my face.

After sometime, Finally it did rain,a lil drizzle on the earth, and there i was standing outside feeling the drops of rain,i jus moved my left hand  to feel it at first,It felt wow!! Remebered those days when me and my friends purposely forget umbrella just because it would be one reason to escape from blastings at home when we get drenched. I could recall every single memory i had with rain since my childhood.Also realised that this busy new life had made me miss all that now....There i was now feeling the drops thats about to touch the earth with both my hands.I bent little ahead and now the raindrops kissed my cheeks  and then the ground.I luved getting drenched after a long time.

It really feels great when u come out of ur work and make sum time for urself,live ur life the way u want to, just simply luv doing it most of the time.It may be jus for few minutes or seconds but it will be cherished ever.