The Veil

Those eyes as beautiful as glittering star.

Those eyes were only what you could see

The veil hid everything else

The hair, the ears, nose, lips.

There hid something else behind the veil

I dumped all my feelings and emotions behind the veil

There was a secret that wasn’t supposed to be revealed

To this dark world

Each time I passed by you, my eyes did the talks.

Those eyes as dark as a sky with no moon light

Those eyes as sharp as bright sun

Those eyes which had no tears left

My eyes said to you, “I don’t belong to the world of love”

You continued to follow me with smile

I never removed the veil

I never let you see the real me

My thoughts were bombarding to seek revenge

Revenge of letting me alone in this world

I wanted the blood to flow again

This time it was blood of anger

Years ago,

My curly hair would always be open letting the breeze blow it

My lips would never miss to expand with smile

My ears would have the prettiest earrings which every girl would envy

But one day when I returned home

It was floor of blood

Blood of all my loved ones

No one alive, for no mistake they did

I was all alone with no one in this world

That day, I covered my face with the veil

And started running, I never looked back

I never looked at the world again without this veil.

This day, this moment the floor is filled with blood again

You are on the floor crying hard exactly like how I did years ago

Blood of your loved ones are flowing covering the whole floor

Your hands are shivering, so did mine years ago

But your family showed no mercy to me years ago.

Now that my heart is content with revenge,

And I am lying down on the floor with my flowing blood.

Your eyes meets my eyes again and this time there is no smile on your face

You look at my eyes surprised

I remove my veil and you see my face

I look at you and smile

And that is my last breath!

Flaws to Perfection

She was funny, naughty and crazy.

She made millions of people smile in her journey every day.

There were her set of bad days too where she lost her own smile and she was blamed.

She owned a heart filled up with unconditional love and care.

She hugged people when they felt lonely and held the hands when they needed support.

There were days when she had lost all her strength to help and she was blamed.

She respected feelings and valued relationships.

She compromised to keep them happy and to live more moments with them.

There were days where she lost herself completely and she was blamed

She worked hard to give her best to people around

She spent tiring days and sleepless nights

There were days where she was restless and she was blamed

She loved truly and deeply

She bonded and connected from heart

There were days when she had to let go with deep pain within and she was blamed

She wiped their tears of sorrows

She gave her shoulder to rest

There were days when she had to wipe her own tears and she was blamed

She was known for her soft speech

She made wonders with words

There were days when she was left with no words and she was blamed

            She sees the change

            She see the different her

            She sees that the more people she loses, the more she finds herself

The game of “Let go” and “Hold on”

             I believe most of you would have crossed this phase in their life at times- To hold on and to let go.

Few years back - It was a tough time for me holding on to each other in a group of people(just because we wanted to stay together),then later holding on seemed so difficult that all of us had to let go one another to keep ourselves happy. Days passed by wondering “Where we went wrong” and trying to set things right but the holding on torture was too much that none of us were able to be normal again. Today we are connected individually but still apart as a complete group. Each one of us has moved on with a new beginning. Definitely it took me hell a lot of time to be back to normal again.

              Many a times,this lesson of “Let go” and “Holding on” are self learnt due to one’s own experience or may be these lessons are taught since childhood in small steps.For Example: when you were a kid, u must have played with your friends, cousins, neighbours who came to your house for a visit –you enjoy playing with them so much that you don’t want them to leave you and go , you ask them to stay at your home forever.But your parents say “Let them go, They have important work ,They will finish the work and will be back to play with you in the evening”. So here your parents lie to you to keep you happy and ask you to let them go with hopes that they will soon be back. Since you are a small Kid you tend to forget things very soon and get diverted that you hardly remember in the evening about the promise made before they left.

But as you grow up things change,The definition of “Let go” is now at a bigger level. Moving away from someone’s life for what so ever reasons it may be! Or in another word,finishing your role/part in that someone’s life! You tend to remember and miss the person whom you have “let go”. I wish our memory would still be like a Kid’s memory in such matters. Unfortunately its not! Their every  talks,deeds etc tend to reflect infront of your eye very often.There is nobody to give you promise of coming back and moreover we are matured enough to understand and predict the reality.Its just hopes  that might keep us going ! Hopes shatter many a times whereas few tend to be lucky though.

Holding on is another such game where you don’t want to loose someone/something important that means a lot to you and hence you tend to keep holding on and take everything  that’s coming on your way – Here your patience is at stake.Once your patience is lost holding on becomes too difficult !Yet Again, priority matters, Patience wins priority sometimes !

Sadly, My Life has played this game of "let go" and "hold on" unwillingly often.Each time I think I am good at holding on and letting go,I realize I am just the beginner !!!This is a very dangerous game,which will grind your emotions,feelings,confidence,smile etc at one shot ! - if your life has never given you a chance to play this game you have been blessed !! Be happy to be so ! All I can say is Sometimes you have to keep holding on unwillingly and sometimes you have to let go though you don’t want to -Not because you want it that way, its because you have no other option and its good that way ! Either ways you choose, you are hurt!!

             

Tough Day !

You are the person who first held me in your hands
You are the person who first smiled at me with a tear of joy
You are the person who wiped my first tears
You are the person who held me tight in your arms

You are the person who made me smile
You are the person who taught me to talk
You are the person who showed the world to me
You are the person who blessed me everyday

You are the person who gave me support for my very first tiny step
You are the person who held my hand each time I was about to fall
You are the person who taught me what is right and wrong
You are the person responsible for a proud person that I am today

You made me strong when I was weak
You cheered me up when I was low
You made me win when I thought I had lost
You made me happy when I was sad

Though time has made us apart
By huge distance we now depart
I can never meet you again
I can never see you again

As you have have reached too far away
To a place where I cannot find a way
Yet I always stay connected to you in my own way
You are always loved dear mom!

Thanks,sorry,forgive,forget !

BEFORE: [I thought ] – The world is beautiful because of these words!

“Thanks” - A word that can be used as a way of gesture for a person who  has helped you in any possible way! A word from heart to the person who made you smile and happy!

               But I learnt  and felt the real meaning of Thanks when I had to hear - “Thanks, You made me realize life is painful”

“Sorry” – A word that re-joins the broken bond, this word brings a smile on fuming face.Interms of misunderstandings,this single word unites the loved ones and brings them closer!

                But I learnt and felt the real meaning of Sorry when I had to hear – “Sorry, It’s all over between me and you”

“Forgive” – A word that makes one forget all the grudges, also reduces long gap among people and helps to turn two people from enemies to friends!

                But I learnt  and felt the real meaning of Forgive when I had to hear – “Forgive me because I was once part of your life”

“Forget” - A word  that gives you relief from your past mistakes,vanishes  your  worries, that

can make your regrets and pains to disappear!

                But I learnt  and felt  the real meaning of Forget when I had to hear – “Forget me for once and forever”

AFTER : [Now I think] -The world would have been more beautiful without these words !

For all those who  feel life is beautiful with these words,think twice at every step of your life and act accordingly as its better to make sure that these words never come to you in a hard way !

Did i do a "Mistake" ?

Lost is the “understanding” we shared

Lost is the “attachment” we had

Lost is the “deep bonding” we developed

Lost are the days when I could read your thoughts even before your speech

I spent days and nights together

With a wound of guilt seep in

Never did I let those tears pour from my eyes

Nor did I let my heavy heart speak out those words

I swallowed the pain of guilt

Being myself, being strong

Being away from the world

All alone

I asked same question everyday to myself

“Where did we lose our care for each other?”

I blamed myself every moment

“Did I do a mistake?”

Thousand thoughts running across my head all day

And me Eager to flush out all running thoughts at once

But it was time to choose

Whether  ”to hold on”  or “to let go"

I was searching for answers within me

Never were those questions answered by me

I realised   “sorry” was  too short to say

I realised   “Don’t leave me” was too much to ask for

Lost is the “love” and “care”

Lost is the “me”  in “you”

Lost is the “us” in “we”

“Lost”  forever and ever

I wonder why is it so.. ??!!

Every day and every moment I feel you by my side

Every now and every then I see you in my ride

Every minute I realize I miss you so

Every second I wonder why is it so

I think of you day and night

I want you to hold me tight

I think of you never leaving me

I want you to believe me

There’s no shine I see in the sun

There’s no light I see in the moon

There’s no love I feel within

There’s no joy I feel within

I feel you near

Hope someday you hear

I feel you close

Hope someday I never loose

'ME' and 'LIFE'

It is always said “Best lessons of Life are learnt only after experience”.I never agreed to this statement. I always argued saying “Best lessons of life” can be learnt by knowing others experiences, U can always learn from everyone. But I recently found that there is infact lots of differences when u learn from others and when you experience yourself. And trust me this difference is not tiny but very huge.


The kind of feeling I went through for an year almost.I had lost the continuity of life for some reasons.My Life was going on a superfast rollercoaster ride,so many  ups  and downs.There was something lacking in everyting I do.The feel  of lack of happiness and satisfaction every now and then.I would be part of fun with my friends, laugh with them, go to work but could not feel the happiness to the fullest .Nothing seemed right at times ! Everything just too messy around me and when things were going on right track, there it slips again! I wished to press "PAUSE" button of my Life if i had an option.


It was a fight between me and Life. Every second I had to fight back. And c’mon Thanks to this wonderful Society, How lovely it is.The society laughs with u when u r laughing but when u cry,again it laughs at u, some pity on you ,Some see u and make sure they utilize every chance to make fun of u and and some who will catch u half the way and then disappear in between. I hate to say I had to place few people who were in my heart ,away from my heart, they had lost their value n my respect towards them in this phase of my Life. Also few gained my respect and I valued them.Each time I moved forward all these would push me back again ! I was trying to get myself back every now and then.I Never wanted to loose myself.The liveliness, charm and “ME” is what I always wanted to keep alive . The struggle between me and Life was hard to survive !


All this, made me more tough.This is when I came to know what exactly it means  by fighting back.How does it feel when u undergo through all circumstances of life,I understood clearly  what it  is when we say our loved ones  “Everything will be fine” when things are in a bad state.The pain they might be undergoing  is something which we cant  feel  nor  can we imagine in our wildest dreams when we try to convince them to make them feel better..My value,respect,love towards few(including my parents) grew more and more everyday in this phase of  my life.


Trust me !!! Today I never regret the year of ups and downs I went through.I learnt at every single step from everyting and everyone and  now I know Whats my Life.I can give the Definition of my Life in my words with a meaning to every single word.Each word might be painful but I Love every bit of the pain , every tiny pinch of it where I never forgot my smile, I stood for myself .Today whatever I am,my Life is,I live it.


My Life has still continued the roller-coaster ride,So what! Life simply goes on :)

May be "I am lucky"!!

Heart  shattered being desperate for few words
Eyes insearch of those  who had  promised  "I am there for u"
Ears eager to hear  a "hi"
Arms wanting a hug
Heart  heavy in need of that shoulder where head could rest
Pain hidden but still continued the smile

Loneliness was killing around
As Loneliness became too long
Heart slowly fell in love with it and enjoyed it
Loneliness became  the best feeling  ever

Time taught where one stands
Time pointed spoken words that were never followed
Time showed  relationship may not stay forever
Time echoed the past that witnessed present 

It never hurts nor does it regret to see those faces
The same smiling faces that taught the lesson of life
Its happiness for all around that matters
Though heart misses a beat at times

Thats not the end!
As wonderful love was showered
Unspoken words cared
And there were hearts that wanted the pain to disappear
The ones who had never promised.

Now tellme what should be valued more
The unspoken words that cared or the spoken words that failed
Painful yet wonderful lesson of life
Which noticed  those few who held the hand!!
May be  "I am LUCKY";)