"HE" is my "HERO"

                     

                               I have to write today! I have to write today because I am away from home and I miss being with the best person. A person who taught me what is Life, what is the world and showed me way towards light. I miss him often. I miss him more every day. All I get to do now is to visit him taking few days off OR multiple phone calls every day despite my busy schedules.

                                When I was five years old and had joined the school. He peddled cycle every day morning and afternoon for kilometers together just to drop and pick me up from school. I still remember the tiny green seat in front that was fixed only for me.It wasn’t an easy task, He felt tired and did stop at times at the side of road and then continued to peddle again. There wasn’t a single day when he complained about it. In fact he smiled each time he saw my face. He worked hard at office to give me the best of education and best of everything in Life.

                                “You are my world”- He always said and still continues to say even today! His job posted him to a different location. I was studying in primary school when he chose to move to different location all alone. Of course not by choice but because his job forced him too. Inspite of his health issues where he actually wanted mom to be around to help him, he dint take anyone of us with him. The only reason was he was posted to a location of tiny village where there was no education system available in those days. He dint want me to lose two years of my school education.

                                  I made him proud with my mark sheet each time he visited home. I was the school topper everytime.I would wait for the day he would come. I would keep all my prizes and certificates that I had won on the table. He would pat on my back and praise my hard work. He would also get me some gift each time he travelled home. 

                                  I remember that day when I had asked him for a teddy. I had seen few of my friends owning big teddies and out of nowhere I too wanted to own one. Honestly, I don’t know why I wanted a teddy because I was never fond of it anytime. May be I just wanted to have one like everyone else. I thought my dad would immediately buy me one but he dint. He said “Teddy haan? The doll that is made up of clothes and cotton. What will my daughter do with it? It cannot talk and walk. You can simply carry it. What do you get from owning a teddy?”  I kept quiet. He continued “I would want my daughter to ask me some useful gifts. Like you ask me books that you want to read and get knowledge from. Any book of your choice. I will buy millions of it for you.”  I looked at him with disappointed face. He later said “Ok, looks like you really want a teddy but you will get a small teddy first, after few months if you still wish to own a big teddy then let me know”. He further continued “And to get the small teddy you need to work hard and score a rank this final exam”. That was an easy task for me then. I worked hard and stood first in my class. My dad kept his promise with small teddy as my gift. Within few weeks I had lost all the interest in that boring teddy and dint want a big teddy anymore. Infact I just kept the small teddy only for the reason that it was a gift from my dad. This continued in every phase of my life. I would be made aware of what is worth owning and then gifted with what I want at the right time. This taught me value of everything I own in life and also taught me to get things by working hard. The joy that you feel is immense. I was gifted with cycle and scooty when it was necessary at right time. Never got it immediately when I asked for it the first time.

                                  I grew up. Young hot blood was flowing in my body .Things had gradually changed. I wasn’t the same rank holder student anymore in my studies. There were times I let him down. There were times I made him feel low. There were times I made him angry. There were times I felt helpless .There were times I was ashamed of myself but he still stood beside me proudly. There was a time I broke into bits and pieces. He used all his strength, gathered those broken pieces together and made it one again. My respect towards him increased and love towards him doubled.

                                  Today I am in a state where I need to make time to make a phone call just to talk to him. I cannot talk to him for hours together sitting next to him as I stay away from home while he is always next to me whenever I need him. He is still working on giving me best in my life and I am not able to be his strength. He is always there when I want him but I am never available. Yea, I am definitely working on being there for him.

                                  His patience, his courage, his determination and will power is what I always wish to develop in me. He is my strength from the day I was born and even today and for future. Yes! He is my first HERO, my DAD! – Today whenever he sees me, he still gives me hopes on how to deal with Life, to stay determined, to be positive and that keeps me pushing ahead. I LOVE YOU MORE DAD!                                 

Parallel Universe

A different world, a different universe. It’s a land of colors.I sat in a white cloud high up in the light blue sky. I was sitting on a cloud. The cloud was moving slowly and I was immersed in admiring the color of sky. The cloud stopped in front of a white dome shaped castle and I got down. I looked around. Tiny little blue birds, size of my thumb were flying around with a sweet humming sound. Bright little glittery balls were bouncing up and down all over. I smiled and walked ahead.

 After walking many steps I stood in front of a big door. The door had its own magnificent design. I went close and was immersed in observing the artistic design. I saw “HAPPINESS” was only word written on a big door. The door was completely white similar to the color of milk. I stood infront of the door with my mouth wide open. The door opened automatically. I saw left and right. I could see no one. I just ran inside very quickly. To my surprise there was no one inside. It was a total calm place with literally nothing. I ran back to the door again but it was closed. I tried hard to open the door but it went in vain. I sat down disappointed. After few minutes I got up and tried opening the door again but it dint help. I then turned back started walking ahead. The place was very silent and calm. If a needle was dropped down I bet I could have heard the sound.

             After walking for more than half an hour I saw another big door. This time the door was already open. The door was highly classic design and was brown in color, I went in. On both the sides stood line of strange people. They were dressed up like they were from an ancient ancestor’s age. A small crown on each person’s head, a heavy metal covered their body and everyone had a round shaped antique piece held in their hand. As I entered, these people on both ends bowed down their head at once. I was surprised and continued walking.

              I reached the third door. I have never seen a door as beautiful as this in my life. It had all the colors I had seen so far in my life. It was just amazing. It had no design but only colors. I tried opening the door but it dint work. I pushed it hard, the door dint open. I put all my strength and pushed the door with great and full force this time and the door opened at once. I went inside. I could hear light music, see beautiful butterflies, bright shining stars falling down all over and melting on the ground. I saw the balloons of heart shape in Red color around me in the air. I was happy and I felt good. I caught the shining stars in my hand and it melted in my hand. My hands felt the cold tickling feeling.

               Suddenly I heard a voice, a voice that was powerful and commanding. A voice that was firm and a voice that one wanted to listen over and over again. The voice whispered “You have crossed three doors of Life that everyone always wants. First door which was complete white and the place where you saw nothing was place of PEACE. The second door where people bent down when you entered was place of RESPECT. And the final door where you felt very happy and extremely good was place of LOVE. The ultimate powerful emotion in every human’s life and the emotion from which no human can escape from. Your LIFE is now complete! “The voice stopped and I stood there blank.

               Immediately a strong breeze passed by and I couldn’t stand in the same place.I was blown away with the wind. “Thud” I fell down. I opened my eyes and I was in the same crazy daily world, I had fallen down on the ground from my bed. I searched for my phone and saw the time. I was late to my office. I smiled at the thought that i named as "Parallel Universe" and there I went ahead for my usual routine.

               

Thoughts that flow !!

      My thoughts reflect the past, my thoughts witness my present and at times tiny little hopes of future are captured.

                I am a day dreamer big time. I can sit for hours together doing nothing but only get so lost in my own thoughts. Sometimes I do wish I would have used this time in something fruitful then I answer myself “I don’t have to rule the world now, so it’s OK”.

                My early morning takes my thoughts for a walk through my memory lane. Every morning I go for a walk to a park nearby. This practice started just to give my mornings a fresh start watching nature and to feel the morning breeze. A light music, my favorite shoes and a jacket, hands in my pocket and there I go. I have to walk a little distance to reach the park. I have to cross few lanes of big and small houses as well. Few things that I observe daily is I see a lady splashing water in front of her house door when I go for a walk and by the time I finish my rounds in the park and return back, beautiful design of “Rangoli” would be ready to welcome in front of the door. My thoughts just took me to my past where my granny did the same and we little ones would stand next to her and watch in excitement. She would do it so perfect and fast. As I walk further I see a young boy (probably in his 12- 16 years age) who stops his cycle at every house he crosses , picks up a news paper from the bunch at his cycle basket and throws it in front of every house. Trust me; I always make sure I don’t miss watching him as he throws newspaper to first floor, second floor and also third floor standing in the same position of the road. The newspaper rolls high up in the sky and falls perfect. “Dude, you can be a basketball champ” my thoughts said to me when I watched him. His throw never gets missed every day. My thoughts reminded me of a friend who had once told me “I don’t care that I am going through a bad time because I come from a background where I have lived my life as a newspaper boy. So today if I am kicked out of my job I am bold enough to lead my life independently finding a new way”. This thought made me smile. I continue my walk and I see a shopkeeper opens his tiny shop every day morning. Keeps few racks of groceries outside the shop, makes ready a small bench for customers, hangs few magazines in front of the shop. My thoughts took me to my childhood days where my uncle who owned a shop used to do this every morning. I used to visit him only on summer vacations. He did make me and my cousins sit in the shop. All we had to do was know the price, collect the money and return proper change and give them what they asked. I entered the park and I see old couple walking in the park, few young folks running and little exercise. Adding on, I do see few little kids who come to the park early morning to play see saw, swing. I see the joy and excitement in every kids face when the swing and see-saw goes up and down. My thoughts reflected my past where me and my sister used to finish our homework real fast just to join our friends at the park to play the swing.

                I finish my walk, continue my daily routine and off I go to office. I always prefer a window seat when I travel in the bus. Because I always love to observe the world around me. I see a group of little kids with uniform playing on the road side while their parents are holding their school bags waiting for the school bus. They were playing some game clapping their hands. My thoughts took me down the memory lane of my school days where we sang rhyming words and clapped our hands. I did try to recollect the words fully and realized I have forgotten few words. My bus stopped being stuck at traffic and my thoughts started waving around my present routine of office,cooking,meetings to attend etc.To see positive  side of my present I took my thoughts to my favorite books awaiting in my bookshelf that I would continue  to read, movie that’s planned for weekend. The bus started moving slowly by then and there I see a beautiful young couple who held their hand. The guy asked the girl to stand after him and then carefully looked around and crossed the door holding her hand tight. My thoughts went into my future. I don’t stop my thoughts when it shows me hopes of future (which may or may not happen). I let my thoughts swim. By now the bus had started moving on the flyover and the morning breeze near the window seat brushed my face, I tilted my head slightly towards right and my eyes closed. My thoughts continued to swim into future.

      I looked into his eyes and he smiled at me, I put my hand on his head and brushed his hair and he smiled again. He puts an arm around my shoulder and kisses my cheeks. I blush. He pulls me towards him and cuddles me in his arms. I feel safe forever. I feel I have the whole world with me. After being in his arms to my heart’s content I rest my head on his shoulder. He kisses my forehead. I feel I am the happiest person. Suddenly I feel the jerk and my head is hurt. My thought of future now brings me to present. I was in the bus and the last stop had arrived. I get down and my final thought says “Whoever you are and wherever you are, though I am unsure of your existence and unsure that you are on the way to reach me, I will hold you tight in my thoughts forever”. 

Learn LIFE

         Life – The word “Life” itself is a mystery. We all know and have experienced that Life is filled with ups and downs. Life keeps going no matter what! As said always “Live for today to the fullest”. Is that easy?

         After a point of time, when life puts you down over and over again, each time you fall you learn to get up and then the moment you get up you fall all over again?! How awful you would feel? – Living with positive attitude and hopes of better tomorrow gets drained out eventually .Now you just want to give up! Life becomes struggle, almost every day.

                     Since past few months or nearly a year my Life has become constant. Books, papers, watching the world, entertainment nothing actually helps me or feels exciting. Personally and professionally I have seen no good, I kept going ahead hoping for better tomorrow. Everyday there is a ball of emptiness above my head that follows me everywhere. Oh yea, How can I forget what people tell me – “The best comes in the end”, “It’s all about time, Things will surely fall in place” etc etc. After hearing it a million times my answer would be like “Now that’s really not helping me”.

                    The best way to deal with Life at this point would be to connect the dots. (Not being philosophical but this does help me - at least for few minutes). It’s always said “One should forget the past and move on” – True, but it’s not harmful to recollect the past at times and learn about your life. Past would have been painful or probably memorable. Visit and come back J you would feel better or you would now SMILE recollecting it again.

                    I sat in my room next to an open window, gathering thoughts and felt every phase that I have crossed and every path that I have walked so far had a reason. A reason that was unwrapped at a later stage in my Life.

I had to meet few wrong people who were not meant to stay with me forever and then I met right ones later. Here I learned to value them.

I had to choose between let go and hold on. Here I learned to be strong.

I had to meet a person to direct him to the right path. Here I learned to be a guide.

I had to choose among emotions and goal. Here I learned to be practical.

I had to leave behind attachments and move ahead. Here I learned to move on.

         Today wherever I am and whatever I am - I have learned. I would still keep learning. You wish or you don’t but Life will surely teach you the lesson. You have to learn because you have no other choice. You have to cry to learn to SMILE. Though you are fed up, you have to cross the path that is meant for you to pass. So live, love and continue to do what makes you happy. Just don’t stop because you are tired. If not today tomorrow you will know why things were not working out for you when you wanted it to. And that day you would SMILE again and probably be “thankful” too.

"Small Incident"

          I still remember those childhood days. I was a school going girl.An annual day function happens every year in every school .We students perform many cultural events, entertainment. Also students who have done achievements in that academic year will be awarded too. I was one among many students selected by the school teacher to act in a drama. We students were supposed to give stage performance on a theme as per teacher’s instructions. The drama contained many characters and each role was given to individual students based on their capacity to bring out the best in those characters.

                   The main role was of a Tiger. My Teacher selected me for this role. She said “ Dear,I know you have the potential and you will perfectly fit into this role.This is the main character in whole drama and you would be on maximum focus as you would be performing in all the scenes.” I really don’t know why but I said “No, Please give me a real small role.I don’t want to be on main role.” My Teacher tried to convince me and then finally gave up.She then gave this role to some other student. In return I got a role of a servant where I had to be on stage only for one scene of the drama.Very minimal dialogue.I was very happy.

       That day I came back home and told my mom the story of how I denied to take a major role.I got an unusual reaction from her.Her first question was “Can I know why?” in a very calm tone. I answered “Because I felt I cannot do it.” Then she asked,"How do you know that you wont be able to play that role? Did you give it a try?”. I answered,“No,I just felt”.She blasted me right then.She said “Did you deny that major role and chose to opt for something minimal.Aren’t you ashamed of yourself? Do you even know what does it mean when you decline something best coming your way?” I dint know why this bothered my mom.I was angry on her for scolding me.

       Next day my mom was at my school with me.She spoke to the teacher and I was given the major role back again.This time my teacher dint even ask me if I was OK with the role change.The practise started,continued with endless rehearsals, and finally the day came where we had to perform on stage.Our play was a hit and every character in the play performed the best including me.I was very happy after the play,I could see my mom smiling and clapping her hands.

                  If I look back now on this incident ,I realize she was right.She wanted her daughter to know  that her daughter is capable of it.She pushed me to do that role because she dint want to let her daughter diminish her self confidence on oneself. Now why did I refresh my childhood incident on this page is, since past few years as an IT professional, I have been exploring  new life, new journey. There are times when oppurtunities knock at my door.Many a times I tend to push it away(same like I did during my childhood) because of lack of self –confidence and then I realize I shouldn’t. Back then when I was a kid, I had my mother to take a stand for me when I wasn’t confident on myself.Now I am a grown up individual, my lesson of childhood should be something that I should carry forward,by being confident on  oneself and giving oppurtunities a try before I give up. And recalling this incident always gives me a push.Once you are grown up, you are on your own you see.

      Strange that every step of our parental nurture makes an impact on us to shape us as a wonderful human. Love them and Love yourself because they have shaped you as a beautiful person that you are today.  

Take a chance

 Most of us tend to lead a routine life! Knowingly or unknowingly our days just pass like any other normal day! I was one among many, who was totally involved in my daily routine life! This continued for months together. Few of us work for a job that we were always passionate about and few others just fit into wrong job and get used to it. We don’t choose to do something different nor do we take some time out of our busy schedule to do things that we want to do.

 Recently, as I was lost in my own world at office work and personal stuff, I received a call asking me to conduct classroom training for a batch of people.Now this was something that I was never involved in before and training was never my job. A new challenge on my way. Who cares, I just wanted to say a “NO” and end it up. However for a change, I decided to say a “YES”. I  wanted to try my hands on something new that I have not tried so far.Now I knew that saying a yes,means there was a lot of extra work that was going to come my way and I wanted to give the training as a proper trainer and not end it up for the heck of it. Dates were fixed, huge participants were added as invites, classroom was dedicated for whole week to me and my students.

 Before the training started I had to be thorough on my preparations ,first few days of my initial preparation went for a toss because of my project workload and I was a little lazy,I usually don’t do things until its sitting right on top of my head with deadline :P I had just one week left to start my  training.And I had to start plus finish my preparations as a trainer.I had to be 1000 times more confident on my subject than the participants who would be present there.I dedicated my entire time on my preparations pushing everything else aside including the holidays plus weekends. I felt confident on what I had to speak during my training.

The first day of training, my intention was to make everybody present there very comfortable,so that they feel free to shoot all their doubts at me.From second day till last day went with complete training material subjects in detail.Making everyone interact was part of this ! On my last day of training,I saw myself as a trainer, having the best feeling ever.The entire effort of day and night that I had put in this training felt worth it. To make this memorable I just gave a sheet of paper and asked every participant to scribble positives and negatives of me a trainer.Positives would build up my confidence and negatives would let me know where I should improve on.And these sheets went directly into my diary.I revealed on the last day that this was my first experience as a trainer which surprised all participants.

The last day of my training, when everyone had vacated the room, I was standing there feeling happy and good. We tend to loose ourself very often in this fast phase of our life doing things what we regularly do.Try to explore yourself whenever you get an opportunity to do something different.Dont fear to take a chance.Because every chance taken gives you a learning.Thats when you will know the better you.

Dear Life,

You make me smile

You make me cry

You make me sad

You make me happy

You teach me meaning of emotions

You teach me meaning of feelings

You teach me to hold on

You teach me to let go

You make me see beautiful days

You make me see worst days

You make me feel emptiness

You make me feel myself complete

Sometimes you make me meet the ‘right people’

Sometimes you make me meet the ‘wrong people’

You make few to stay with me forever

You make few to walk away from me forever

Sometimes you pour ‘sorrows’

Sometimes you pour ‘joys’

Sometimes you make me feel ‘weak’

Sometimes you make me feel ‘strong’

When I think everything is right, you slip

When I think everything is over, you go back on track

When I think I win, you show me that I have still a long way to go

When I think I lose, you show me ‘hope’

Dear Life, Whatever you are

I am still in love with you

Because till the journey ends

I will always keep learning!

Ask yourself - Is this 'ME'?

This blog is a little about my life, where I would crib about the way things were going around with me for couple of months. I was with a comfortable, fun loving team around me at office. They kept me lively and happy everyday! I don’t mean they dedicated their time taking good care of me but the team itself was so freaking good that anybody in the team enters the office and goes for a cup of coffee at the beginning of the day together with the whole group, one would definitely forget what was he or she worrying about. All individuals were uniquely crazy and every individual put together rocked, winning hearts of millions. Touch wood!

  It’s always said Life is a journey and millions of people just pass by you in this journey. Some people make the journey wonderful. These set of people are those who made my journey wonderful and kept building up my hopes, confidence every now and then. Probably they are the only reason that I am smiling today! But days pass by and change is mandatory. I cannot expect to work with the same set of people anywhere I go, nor can they (especially in IT industry).It was time for a change for everybody. People got fit into different organizations starting at the beginning of last year. Every month of last year kept me involved in organizing back to back farewells! We are all still connected even today but departed due to different organizations plus locations and can’t hang out on a daily basis 24*7 with each other.

I fell into a new role with a new team. It’s always hopeless to move out of your comfort zone and the same happened to me.I found it a little hard initially to cope up with new role and team. I kept missing my old team very often. The new team had lot of negative vibes pushing my way. I was losing my confidence and also it was bringing down my hopes. I pushed myself very hard to get on track, but felt helpless. Along with this, my personal life was losing track, I had some people whom I was with talking about my attitude and having problems with the way I am. Now I found myself as a very disturbed person,living a routine time table life, not doing what I wanted to do but doing what others wanted from me.I dint even remember when was the last time I stepped out to a roadside tea stall,when was the last time I had been for a long walk in the cold breeze,when was the last time I ran around my work place with crazy talks etc. I questioned myself  “Is this  ‘ME’ ?” The answer was a obvious “NO”. When all things shoot at you at one single shot, you feel down especially when you are not a kind of person who would expect a shoulder to rest on incase of problems. You deal with your problems all alone and that needs a lot of self push. It makes you stronger and each learning will teach a lesson. At the same time, I had my dearest ones who were going through worst phase of their life and expected me to be their strength. Now may be this was an add on for me to force myself to be more strong and push myself back to normal. To serve them happiness, I had to first find my happiness back! Else there was no point in me being their strength!

I had to first build up my confidence and bring up my hopes. That started by finding positive energy in my new team. I recognized the set of people in my new team where I found positiveness and avoided the negative side. This was my first step. Second was I started dealing with myself more than dealing with the ones who had problem with me for the way I am. Their presence dint matter to me anymore. My emotions towards them was made to “null” which means that there is no chance of hurting myself anymore in future with these people. I fell and picked something up! First time when I fell I had picked up “Writing” and this time it is “Drawing”. Third step was I stayed away from networking, like the most famous whats app, fb etc and i found all time in the world for me and only myself. I started knowing more about myself, also learning more about myself. I found the real happiness starting from buying chocolates for little kids, giving more time to parents on call(since they stay far away),helping the ones who expect, sometimes even being a silent support with million empty words!  A little struggle and there I found myself back again – Now did I forget to mention that writing this blog has actually made my heart lighter ;-) Feels awesome! –

 Happiness is all around, sometimes you just tend to lose yourself in this fast phase of life. It’s you who have to notice it, Talk to yourself and start finding your happiness in every tiny little thing that you do. I am sure you will thank yourself for being you! – So deep within ask yourself a question “is this ‘ME’?”

Its a New day tomorrow ..!

We often say – “Things change” – so do people ;) If you scratch your head to find a reason for change, you hardly find it!

Inspite of being a strong person at heart,being a person with  least expectations, there might have been some situations in each one of your life where accepting the change and digesting the present fact have been very difficult for you.Sometimes none would be able to guide you out of such situations.You feel lost, angry and helpless.You realize the sinking feeling.

If you ask me why one feels so difficult to accept the present I really don’t know.Elders would say – “Every change happens for good”. I have never understood what does the word good mean when they say this!.They also say – “Everything will be alright soon”. This is other way of saying – “You would feel better once you have accepted the change”, Smart elders and we are the fools :P Ultimately every person needs to fight their own battle –all Alone !

For me things keep changing often – Everytime I feel I have reached a stage where I actually fit in somewhere, I suddenly find myself in an unfamiliar place again.I convince myself or rather I would say I fool myself by blaming everthing on destiny :P

Life is never balanced,never easy!Same way change is not always acceptable but do you really have a choice ?! Many a times “NO”

You cannot question “why” because you will never find an answer.All you have to know is a day just goes on, and a day ends. A new day would start again tomorrow !

Dreams -Chase it !

Every person has the right to own a dream. Dreams are never an easy catch for everyone. One need to pay the price for his/her own dreams. Sometimes it’s the easy way and sometimes it’s the hard way.

Each time you chase your dreams what if your dreams are pushed to “The end”? Who on the earth will you blame?

‘You’                   – For being too slow and late in running behind your dreams

‘Dreams’              – For being crushed just when it bloomed

‘Destiny’              – For the twist it brought just when you realized you are a step closer to your dreams.

Mind will be in too much of a whirl to make sense. If you say “It’s all over”, then you may always regret about the things you dint finish. On one end you might try to make sense out of life but on the other end you might sound very sensible analyzing the present. You may feel that you have jumped into a carpet bag.

You are not doomed. It requires guts to get up and chase your dreams again. Remember when the road to your dreams gets blocked it always means that there is another way out! Find it out and you will definitely see it!

So what are you waiting for? Get up and start running behind your dreams! Never ever give up until you reach it! Good Luck!!!!

"A day"- see with difference

Everyday would end before I hardly realize my day has begun. Days just pass whereas I am totally indulged in my busy schedule. Today I wanted my day to be different. I want to see the world around me is what I thought. It’s the same place, the same normal-like day, same roads, same office and same schedule but still with a difference.All I decided to do is watch what’s going on around me in a different manner just for a day and thus began my day today

Every day when I go to office, I would sit in my cab with full-on music with eyes closed (feeling the lyrics of songs) and head rested on the seat or the second option would be I would be busy flipping pages of novel that I read .Today for a change I only put on my head set , played  light music .Today I kept the window of my cab open. I was sitting right near to the window. The cool breeze was making me feel the chill of weather. And as decided I was watching everything around me through the window. My cab had to put a break at one place due to traffic signal. There I saw a lady standing with her two kids on the street (a baby gal n a boy).Both kids were in their school uniform neatly dressed with a tie and shoes and a two sided bag on their back plus their lunch bag. They were waiting for school van I suppose. The boy was elder and the gal was younger .she looked like nursery going and the boy probably High school, I assumed. I was in the bus so all i could see was only the actions. The young gal was cranky abt going to school .Her face expression said it all. Mother talks to her son. Her son nods his head to what his mom told him and then immediately her elder son kisses his sister on her forehead and whispers something. The baby gal smiles. I wanted to see more of it but my cab started moving ahead. Probably mom gave some idea to her son to bring her daughter out of cranky mood is what I thought.

As my cab was moving ahead I saw a lady with uniform cleaning the roads, pushing all the fallen leaves n dust  on the road away with broom ...It looked like that was her daily duty and she would be paid for it. I also saw a van of school kids all in school uniform...I peeped into the van. This was the best, as I saw two kids in deep sleep in the van. One kid was snoring with mouth open. Among other kids three kids were playing among themselves with their hands, talking to each other .The other kid was with book open mugging up something. One more boy was busy looking outside the window. He looked at me all of a sudden. I smiled and waved him bye. He smiled too but no bye. May be he was too shy to wave a bye or maybe his parents might have warned not to be too friendly with strangers in a city which is actually good.

There we go, our cab stuck in between traffic. People were fed up waiting for traffic to get cleared. Frustration was seen on their face but I don’t know i was totally chilled out n all happy. All these tiny things that I was watching were making me happy. 

Now I could see a building construction that was going on through the window .How they load cement pull it up, and then unload the cement in it and again the process continues. Next inside my cab I could see a gal trying to pick eye lash fallen on her frens cheek n give it in her frens hands. Simultaneously, I could see people getting down their vehicles going at the side and bending down to get a peep of traffic as to when the traffic might get cleared. I could read frustration of waiting, on few people’s face.I observed a guy with his friend behind him on bike (He was calm probably was the only guy who was chilled out among many around who were totally frustrated of traffic) my cab moved a little front n now it stood next to another bus. Now i could see a gal in deep sleep inside the other bus near the window. I thought lucky gal who got fourty five extra mins to sleep in the bus bcos of traffic. ;) There was another gal in the same bus playing some game in her cell. There was a cartoon n some bridge kind of bars. All she had to do was make the cartoon jump over that bridge, one bridge after one...I could see she completed two levels and then my bus started moving again.

It started raining. The moment it started raining I cud see raindrops on my window n later it had covered all over the window pane. The lady who was in front seat of me closed the window as it started raining. I wanted to open it. When it started raining heavily i did open the window. I put my hand out. Tried to collect the rain drops but it’s difficult to do so, collecting rain water drops in hands is not an easy task.The gal who had closed the window turns back n looks at me. I gave her a smile. She could see me stretching both my hands out n playing in the rain...She smiles back at me n shifts to sum other seat.(I thought that was an indication that now I can open the window fully and enjoy the rain)By then the traffic was cleared n slowly my cab starts moving. Now i wanted to put my face out through the window and get it wet and i did it but not completely as i had to be aware of my one n only one head. Could not take a risk on that .Also that Wipro’s tiny little work was dependent on this head now. ;) Then came my office. Not to forget music was on all the way to keep me full on to observe all this.

I don’t know the reason but I had the best feeling that day. I felt Life is very beautiful and I am missing nothing in it. Every person on this earth can find happiness but just that only few people will happen to see it and rest are too busy looking at the negative side of life day to day. Life comes once, Love it and Live it.