Ask yourself - Is this 'ME'?

This blog is a little about my life, where I would crib about the way things were going around with me for couple of months. I was with a comfortable, fun loving team around me at office. They kept me lively and happy everyday! I don’t mean they dedicated their time taking good care of me but the team itself was so freaking good that anybody in the team enters the office and goes for a cup of coffee at the beginning of the day together with the whole group, one would definitely forget what was he or she worrying about. All individuals were uniquely crazy and every individual put together rocked, winning hearts of millions. Touch wood!

  It’s always said Life is a journey and millions of people just pass by you in this journey. Some people make the journey wonderful. These set of people are those who made my journey wonderful and kept building up my hopes, confidence every now and then. Probably they are the only reason that I am smiling today! But days pass by and change is mandatory. I cannot expect to work with the same set of people anywhere I go, nor can they (especially in IT industry).It was time for a change for everybody. People got fit into different organizations starting at the beginning of last year. Every month of last year kept me involved in organizing back to back farewells! We are all still connected even today but departed due to different organizations plus locations and can’t hang out on a daily basis 24*7 with each other.

I fell into a new role with a new team. It’s always hopeless to move out of your comfort zone and the same happened to me.I found it a little hard initially to cope up with new role and team. I kept missing my old team very often. The new team had lot of negative vibes pushing my way. I was losing my confidence and also it was bringing down my hopes. I pushed myself very hard to get on track, but felt helpless. Along with this, my personal life was losing track, I had some people whom I was with talking about my attitude and having problems with the way I am. Now I found myself as a very disturbed person,living a routine time table life, not doing what I wanted to do but doing what others wanted from me.I dint even remember when was the last time I stepped out to a roadside tea stall,when was the last time I had been for a long walk in the cold breeze,when was the last time I ran around my work place with crazy talks etc. I questioned myself  “Is this  ‘ME’ ?” The answer was a obvious “NO”. When all things shoot at you at one single shot, you feel down especially when you are not a kind of person who would expect a shoulder to rest on incase of problems. You deal with your problems all alone and that needs a lot of self push. It makes you stronger and each learning will teach a lesson. At the same time, I had my dearest ones who were going through worst phase of their life and expected me to be their strength. Now may be this was an add on for me to force myself to be more strong and push myself back to normal. To serve them happiness, I had to first find my happiness back! Else there was no point in me being their strength!

I had to first build up my confidence and bring up my hopes. That started by finding positive energy in my new team. I recognized the set of people in my new team where I found positiveness and avoided the negative side. This was my first step. Second was I started dealing with myself more than dealing with the ones who had problem with me for the way I am. Their presence dint matter to me anymore. My emotions towards them was made to “null” which means that there is no chance of hurting myself anymore in future with these people. I fell and picked something up! First time when I fell I had picked up “Writing” and this time it is “Drawing”. Third step was I stayed away from networking, like the most famous whats app, fb etc and i found all time in the world for me and only myself. I started knowing more about myself, also learning more about myself. I found the real happiness starting from buying chocolates for little kids, giving more time to parents on call(since they stay far away),helping the ones who expect, sometimes even being a silent support with million empty words!  A little struggle and there I found myself back again – Now did I forget to mention that writing this blog has actually made my heart lighter ;-) Feels awesome! –

 Happiness is all around, sometimes you just tend to lose yourself in this fast phase of life. It’s you who have to notice it, Talk to yourself and start finding your happiness in every tiny little thing that you do. I am sure you will thank yourself for being you! – So deep within ask yourself a question “is this ‘ME’?”

Do what you Love AND Love what you do

                        Recently we had graduated with  Master degree. To celebrate the last day of our study life, a bunch of friends decided to wear same set of Tee’s on the last day of our exam. Our intention was to have a similar design on all our tee’s –So the concept  of design was something that could relate to our Master degree course , and this tee would  be kept with us further as a memory of our course days! Now the whole concept had to be approved and liked by everyone who will be ordering for tee. Finally we came up with a design which made some friends very happy and kept some others just convinced.

                        The next task was to print this designed tees – It was a job for me and my friend to find the best place to get this done!Using  a little contacts, and taking few suggestions from many around we chose to goto a place.After having lost ourselves on wrong roads multiple times we called the number of this organization, where we got guidance to reach our destination.

                         Little hesitant and confused, thinking if we were at the right place we parked our bike infront of a small gate.There comes a young guy outside the gate asking “Are you the ones who just called few seconds back asking for direction?” We nod our head with a “yes” and he welcomes us inside. It was a small house.We entered  inside and all we could see was 10-12 computers around.Each one were sitting infront of computer,music on with headphones, few youngsters with laptop, few with cup of coffee,few were enjoying their break by playing little games.A small house converted into an office with an environment similar to that of a house.We were then introduced to a man who took care of the whole office.After listening to us,he made us meet his colleague who could help us.

                          When we explained our concept and thoughts to this guy,he replied  “I understand what you want, I don’t enjoy designing this concept,its not my cup of tea.Would you mind If I make you meet my another colleague sitting over  there at the end whose passion is such concepts.I promise he will make your design much better than what you expect from us”. – He called a guy and said “Beta,we have a concept here and you need to design as per the concept!Please listen to their concept and see if it makes you happy?If yes , take it as your work!” Me and my friend were surprised.So you actually have the liberty to choose your work, You have a choice to say a “NO” to things that you are not interested to take up and choose only those which passionates you!This guy listened to our concept and said “I would love to design this”.He quickly designed multiple designs on our concept infront of us and asked us to choose the one we liked.He actually wanted to know if we would need some modifications on the design so that he will do it for us,but trust me he had already designed the best.

                         These few lucky set of people who worked here enjoyed their work.They dint have time constraints of login and log out.They can come and finish their work anytime they would love to.A bunch of young people were given a chance to show up their creativity in designing. They were free to design what they love and their designs will make wonders.These designs would be on tee’s which would then be on sale.Designing and colouring.This office dint have boss and employee concept,instead had a concept of 'you are your own boss'.You wear what makes you feel good and confident,You come in the time you feel great to work,you design what makes you feel complete, you take a break whenever you want to,and most of all you be what you are!

                          It was a treat to talk to these set of young people,they were very happy in the place they were. They said “when you do what you love and you get paid for it,what more can you ask for in life!”

                            There is a saying – “If every day morning when you get up from bed ,you are dragging yourself to work not being happy, then it’s time to move out of your current job and get into a job that you would have always loved to do” !- Do what you love and Love what you do