May be "I am lucky"!!

Heart  shattered being desperate for few words
Eyes insearch of those  who had  promised  "I am there for u"
Ears eager to hear  a "hi"
Arms wanting a hug
Heart  heavy in need of that shoulder where head could rest
Pain hidden but still continued the smile

Loneliness was killing around
As Loneliness became too long
Heart slowly fell in love with it and enjoyed it
Loneliness became  the best feeling  ever

Time taught where one stands
Time pointed spoken words that were never followed
Time showed  relationship may not stay forever
Time echoed the past that witnessed present 

It never hurts nor does it regret to see those faces
The same smiling faces that taught the lesson of life
Its happiness for all around that matters
Though heart misses a beat at times

Thats not the end!
As wonderful love was showered
Unspoken words cared
And there were hearts that wanted the pain to disappear
The ones who had never promised.

Now tellme what should be valued more
The unspoken words that cared or the spoken words that failed
Painful yet wonderful lesson of life
Which noticed  those few who held the hand!!
May be  "I am LUCKY";)

The Feel of RAIN DROPS !

There i was sitting in my cubicle in the ODC  jus like any other normal day.Suddenly the cell  on my desk makes a beep sound.I move my eyes away from my computer to  glance at my cell for a second.I could see i had received a message.With least interest i just try to see the senders name bcos usually i get only advertising messages very often.But to my surprise the message sender was my friend.She sits in the next cubicle to me.Before i opened the message i just stand up to peep into her cubicle.She was missing on her desk.I wondered what the message was about. I opened the message and it read "come outside,It may rain now."Not a second thought and within a moment my system was locked and there i was standing  outside my ODC near the lake view.The cool breeze,the cloudy weather,and many ppl waiting there desparately for it to drizzle.sounds funny but that is how it is here...because the temperature here is more than 40 degree everytime and rain is just like guest appearance here most of the times.

I too was one among the many  glancing at the sky.It was a weekday so few people went back to their ODC once they finished drinking a cup of coffee/tea.Few more people were out talking over the cellphone and hardly noticed the clouds or may be were not interested.Work was more important anyday.But not the same for me,i was still standing there outside looking at the sky..I could see the clouds moving and the sky all set to pour some drops.A guy who made his time outside for sometime  saw me standing there eagerly and said "Nice weather rite?",I said "yes". He stood  there for sometime watching the climate.He also said "Hope this climate continues"...I added saying "yes,hopefully".I was desperate for  rain drops.It was more than 15 minutes now and the crowd reduced...People lost patience and again went back to their work.The guy too moved away and before leaving he just told me "enjoy".I said "sure".May be he could read the excitement on my face.

After sometime, Finally it did rain,a lil drizzle on the earth, and there i was standing outside feeling the drops of rain,i jus moved my left hand  to feel it at first,It felt wow!! Remebered those days when me and my friends purposely forget umbrella just because it would be one reason to escape from blastings at home when we get drenched. I could recall every single memory i had with rain since my childhood.Also realised that this busy new life had made me miss all that now....There i was now feeling the drops thats about to touch the earth with both my hands.I bent little ahead and now the raindrops kissed my cheeks  and then the ground.I luved getting drenched after a long time.

It really feels great when u come out of ur work and make sum time for urself,live ur life the way u want to, just simply luv doing it most of the time.It may be jus for few minutes or seconds but it will be cherished ever.

Do Love your Loved Ones !

       At times  you might have felt you want everyone but nobody wants you.You also feel that you have lost everyone who are dear to you.Though you know very well that you don't have to be miserable for no reasons because you are damn sure that you have not done anything wrong and you know very well that  you deserve to be happy always but  you cant help it...There can be  people who understand you though you don't tell them and they try to pull you back to yourself very often...Treat such people as angels in your life because there are only a few of them. And also there are  people who can understand you completely but still they don't give a damn though they are your loved ones,this hurts to the core and it makes you feel that this is the worst phase of your life.Situation shows Human reality,Very True is what you feel.You may also feel why on the earth did you compromise so much for those people who can hardly understand all this and why do you still be with them and love them the same as before.Frankly speaking,even i don't know the answer for this..Maybe somewhere unknowingly we have compromised ourselves so much for their happiness that we still wait for them to turn and look back at us at least once and say "I am there with u". 


Just a small sentence from your loved ones can bring you back soon instead of ten sentences from people who are not close to you saying "Be Back to normal?","Whats wrong?","I hope things will get better soon".etc.etc.I know very well that i can put in an effort to make them realise but how until when ? This is something  you cannot force your loved ones  to understand until they realise it themselves.I feel giving an explanation to them about this  and then making them understand  is not worth.Never  mistake this as ego. Its just too much of compromises.But i have just one small question "When my loved ones can easily move on without getting hurt why cant I??"..Was the attachment only from my side that i am finding it so hard.Is it that easy to Let a person go far away.Not easy for me anytime .Still trying to figure out how is it for them!!!!



So Do Love your Loved Ones.Hug them tight when they need it,Respect their love and care shown towards you,Catch their hands when they are all alone.Be with them and make them smile!Never let them go!
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