When the Lift door Opened

It was the tallest building of 28 floors.

I had to get down to ground floor.

I got into the lift

I pressed ground floor

The door closed

I was all alone in the lift

The lift stopped at 23^rd floor

She got into the lift

The door closed

There she stood far away

I saw her again today and so did she look into my eyes

Her body had the perfect curves

Her strong aroma spread within the lift

Her fair legs shined with her half skirt

I just wanted that one moment with her

Only once and never again

Suddenly the lift felt a jerk

Lift had stopped, door still closed

We looked at each other again

We dint panic nor scream

The lift light went off

Exactly 10 seconds later, light started dim and dip

This continued and we still were looking at each other

The dim and dip of light continued

The lift felt the jerk second time and this time it was harder

She lost her balance and now was closer to me

She moved away slightly

Her strong aroma was pulling me towards her

I went closer to her

She dint push me away

I held her hand

She dint stop me

I pulled her towards me

She was now in my arms

She was smiling and her eyes closed

I touched her hair slowly and put it behind her ears

Her breath was all I could her

Her lips touching mine

Her eyes looked at me like shining stars when the lights continued dim dip

My hands now touched her hip

Her hands behind my neck

I kissed her neck 

I removed the thread knot of her dress

Now kissed her back

It was the moment

I had lost myself within her

She pulled out my tee shirt

My body on her

Her smooth skin touched my body

Her lips biting my chest

And we continued

Until we were one

On the floor we were lying on each other

Feeling each other’s breath

Closing our eyes

I feel the jerk again for third time

The dim dip light stops and its dark 

Swoosh! Lights on, I panic

The door opens

People behind me push me and move out of lift

Me perplexed and standing still

A guy standing next to me says, “Sir, excuse me,this is ground floor, we all need to get out”.

I see no sign of her

Wait a min,I look at myself

Am I fully dressed up but how

I smile at myself and get out of the lift

I just wanted that one moment with her

That one moment came to life in my thoughts.               

The Veil

Those eyes as beautiful as glittering star.

Those eyes were only what you could see

The veil hid everything else

The hair, the ears, nose, lips.

There hid something else behind the veil

I dumped all my feelings and emotions behind the veil

There was a secret that wasn’t supposed to be revealed

To this dark world

Each time I passed by you, my eyes did the talks.

Those eyes as dark as a sky with no moon light

Those eyes as sharp as bright sun

Those eyes which had no tears left

My eyes said to you, “I don’t belong to the world of love”

You continued to follow me with smile

I never removed the veil

I never let you see the real me

My thoughts were bombarding to seek revenge

Revenge of letting me alone in this world

I wanted the blood to flow again

This time it was blood of anger

Years ago,

My curly hair would always be open letting the breeze blow it

My lips would never miss to expand with smile

My ears would have the prettiest earrings which every girl would envy

But one day when I returned home

It was floor of blood

Blood of all my loved ones

No one alive, for no mistake they did

I was all alone with no one in this world

That day, I covered my face with the veil

And started running, I never looked back

I never looked at the world again without this veil.

This day, this moment the floor is filled with blood again

You are on the floor crying hard exactly like how I did years ago

Blood of your loved ones are flowing covering the whole floor

Your hands are shivering, so did mine years ago

But your family showed no mercy to me years ago.

Now that my heart is content with revenge,

And I am lying down on the floor with my flowing blood.

Your eyes meets my eyes again and this time there is no smile on your face

You look at my eyes surprised

I remove my veil and you see my face

I look at you and smile

And that is my last breath!

LOVE

  It’s been quite a long time since I have written something on my blog page. They say there is a phase in everyone’s life where one gets lost in chaos. Probably I was going through the same for past few months. It took me months to find myself back again. After lots of travel and work, I finally took a long vacation just to be at home and do nothing.

              Now that I wanted to start the “writing” again, I asked my friend who is a writer to give me a topic on which I can start writing.

              She immediately said “Love”.

              This is a topic on which millions of people write.

              I said “Can I have a different topic please?” She said “No”.

              Yes, the young couples at malls, streets do make me notice them. I smile and wish Bless them within myself. I do have set of friends who are happily married to their Love, few eagerly waiting for their love, and few who are working out on the relationship to take it towards marriage. So the ultimate purpose ends up in marriage where both can live happily together forever and be there for each other through thick and thin.

  I am a soul who recently welcomed late 20’s on my last birthday and have limited year left to reach 30.Still Single, The topic love pisses me off these days because I miss being with my man who has still not turned up. The wait seems longer. But true that, no one can escape from bonding of Love. Even the most serious to most crazy character of humans, have to swim through this bonding. Afterall, love is the only source because of which the world exists.

 Now that he is not here yet, (I believe he might have taken a wrong route and is in a wrong direction who needs to get on right direction to reach me or probably is on his way) let me just assume that someday he will be right next to me making my wish come true. Sometimes I just wish if he had crossed my path by now, but then maybe he is late with a reason.

He has taught me to spend days without him around me 24*7.

He has taught to take a stand for myself in whatever I believe without any support.

He has taught me to love life the way it is and to love myself first the way I am.

He has taught to try my hands on everything that I want to try exploring –May it be writing, reading, drawing, travelling etc. etc.

He has taught me to explore the whole world alone being a strong woman.

He has taught me how to deal with wrong people and how to appreciate the right ones.

He has taught me everything a woman can do without a man by her side.

He has made me strong every day.

Today I have learnt to hide my tears and say “I am alright” with a big smile. I have learnt to be thankful for little that I have and to appreciate people in my life. I have learnt to put all broken pieces together and get up again. I have learnt to bring smile on peoples face and be there for them even when they least expect. I have learnt change is obvious. I have learnt emotions can bring you down if you let them to. I have learnt to believe in Destiny and I know that when it’s your time to meet me, nothing in this universe can stop it.

So my Love, wherever you are, I would want to let you know that I am waiting with my arms wide open to welcome you. I know it’s worth the wait but I am scared that this strong woman may also break down someday waiting for you to turn up. Make it faster before I give up my hopes. I can’t wait to hug you and let me in your arms. I want to get cuddled by you until my heart goes calm. I want to blow a kiss on your forehead and brush your hair slowly every morning when I wake up by your side. Single cup of coffee every morning doesn’t make me feel fresh these days. I need you to share a cup of coffee with me. Come soon, so that lets start celebrating Life together. J

Confused Mind....!!

Please Note :  This was written long back, just found it in my old book when i flipped through the pages.

I simply don’t know what I feel for you.

But I know you are special to me.

I want you to be with me

I want to spend time with you

I want to talk to you

I want to laugh with you

You said you too wish the same

Then why did you let go

I dint say – “move on”

Nor did I say – “Wait for me”

Deep down my heart I wished  

You would take a turn to look back at me.

I know my silence said it all

I may not have agreed to give you happiness

Doesn’t mean I wished to give you sorrows

I still respect and value you the same

And you will remain special to me ever.

I know you need time

You cannot be the same friend to me again

Dont hate me

Because I am not that BAD at all.

When was the last time you made someone happy !

 Nah ! Here I am not talking about impressing  “xyz”  by gifts! Let me convey the message quick and easy!

Just imagine,that you are out with a big group of your friends  on a great trip ! How do we place ourselves among the crowd!? Ofcourse, we plan a trip to relax ourselves ,to see new places and make sure we enjoy it to the fullest .Thats what even I would do.Have fun,play,dance,sing,pose  crazily for the photos,love the sight of beautiful places etc.All these days any  trip to me meant only this. But recently  I found out that a trip could be, more than “Just Fun”.

Do  you see this ?

A friend of you,might be lost in his/her thoughts and looks disturbed

Did you happen to notice this?-This friend of you might be part of the fun,talks,laughter among you but yet completely lost.Go,sit next to this friend and talk,Give a hug, Make him/her feel better.How does it feel when the same friend says – “There’s  a deep pain within me,which I remember often,But now I know there are more colours to Life and I am missing out on it, Thanks”.

A friend of you might be standing far away, watching you when you are on a high ride/water etc.-
Did you happen to notice this?-
This friend of you is too scared of heights. Who is happy to see others enjoying the high rides , Want to try but yet too scared of heights.

Get this friend,hold the hand and take him/her to the ride along with you, Ask this friend to trust you,nothing worse is gonna happen.How does it feel when the same friend tries the ride for the first time with fear and then comes back to you,hugs you and says “That was not as scary as I thought, Thanks buddy.!”

A friend of you might be a new one in the group

Did you happen to notice this? – 
This friend of you is a little uneasy because , all are new to him/her.Trying to mingle but needs  little more time.

Be with this friend,interact,get him/her involved in all your talks,Make him/her  laugh.

How does it feel when the same friend says – “ I had a nice day. Now that I know all of you now,it doesn’t  feel  like I had not known you before”

This  blog was written only with respect to a trip,Who knows , there may be many such people who badly need someone to make them happy and smile though in a small way !- May it be your own friend,loved one, a person sitting next to you at office, or a person who just waved you a hi ;)

If you happen to notice, then you know what you have to do ! - Its worth making someone happy and making  someone SMILE !

Do you remember when was the last time you made someone happy? – If  “YES” ,then there is going to be a next time too, Because you know how it feels . If “NO”, then it’s not too late to begin with,because you will know it’s the best feeling to make someone SMILE  though its only  for a moment :)

Tender Heart

Is there someone who knocks at your door?

Is there someone who begs you to give a chance to make your life beautiful?

Is there someone who wants to fill your life with colours?

OR

is it the other way round-

Is there someone who wants to see light in his/her dark life and likes you to be the bright light that could shine in his/her life forever?

Is there someone whose life is an open book filled with blank pages and likes you to be the one to fill colours to the pages of his/her book forever?

What would you do?

When your mistakes, reflects in front of you, you regret and then you stop.

You don’t go ahead as you might fall.

You don’t trust as you might breakdown.

You don’t splash colours because the only colours you have is black and white.

You don’t want to be the light since you are lost in darkness.

A new person knocks the door again. You ask your heart-“Shall I open the door or keep it closed?”

You wonder -what about those, who have knocked the door long back and still wait for the door of your heart to open.

Choice would be the only one.

But would you ever make a choice?

If YES, would it be the right choice?

My Tender Heart –“Why don't you speak?”

Thanks,sorry,forgive,forget !

BEFORE: [I thought ] – The world is beautiful because of these words!

“Thanks” - A word that can be used as a way of gesture for a person who  has helped you in any possible way! A word from heart to the person who made you smile and happy!

               But I learnt  and felt the real meaning of Thanks when I had to hear - “Thanks, You made me realize life is painful”

“Sorry” – A word that re-joins the broken bond, this word brings a smile on fuming face.Interms of misunderstandings,this single word unites the loved ones and brings them closer!

                But I learnt and felt the real meaning of Sorry when I had to hear – “Sorry, It’s all over between me and you”

“Forgive” – A word that makes one forget all the grudges, also reduces long gap among people and helps to turn two people from enemies to friends!

                But I learnt  and felt the real meaning of Forgive when I had to hear – “Forgive me because I was once part of your life”

“Forget” - A word  that gives you relief from your past mistakes,vanishes  your  worries, that

can make your regrets and pains to disappear!

                But I learnt  and felt  the real meaning of Forget when I had to hear – “Forget me for once and forever”

AFTER : [Now I think] -The world would have been more beautiful without these words !

For all those who  feel life is beautiful with these words,think twice at every step of your life and act accordingly as its better to make sure that these words never come to you in a hard way !

Did i do a "Mistake" ?

Lost is the “understanding” we shared

Lost is the “attachment” we had

Lost is the “deep bonding” we developed

Lost are the days when I could read your thoughts even before your speech

I spent days and nights together

With a wound of guilt seep in

Never did I let those tears pour from my eyes

Nor did I let my heavy heart speak out those words

I swallowed the pain of guilt

Being myself, being strong

Being away from the world

All alone

I asked same question everyday to myself

“Where did we lose our care for each other?”

I blamed myself every moment

“Did I do a mistake?”

Thousand thoughts running across my head all day

And me Eager to flush out all running thoughts at once

But it was time to choose

Whether  ”to hold on”  or “to let go"

I was searching for answers within me

Never were those questions answered by me

I realised   “sorry” was  too short to say

I realised   “Don’t leave me” was too much to ask for

Lost is the “love” and “care”

Lost is the “me”  in “you”

Lost is the “us” in “we”

“Lost”  forever and ever

"A day"- see with difference

Everyday would end before I hardly realize my day has begun. Days just pass whereas I am totally indulged in my busy schedule. Today I wanted my day to be different. I want to see the world around me is what I thought. It’s the same place, the same normal-like day, same roads, same office and same schedule but still with a difference.All I decided to do is watch what’s going on around me in a different manner just for a day and thus began my day today

Every day when I go to office, I would sit in my cab with full-on music with eyes closed (feeling the lyrics of songs) and head rested on the seat or the second option would be I would be busy flipping pages of novel that I read .Today for a change I only put on my head set , played  light music .Today I kept the window of my cab open. I was sitting right near to the window. The cool breeze was making me feel the chill of weather. And as decided I was watching everything around me through the window. My cab had to put a break at one place due to traffic signal. There I saw a lady standing with her two kids on the street (a baby gal n a boy).Both kids were in their school uniform neatly dressed with a tie and shoes and a two sided bag on their back plus their lunch bag. They were waiting for school van I suppose. The boy was elder and the gal was younger .she looked like nursery going and the boy probably High school, I assumed. I was in the bus so all i could see was only the actions. The young gal was cranky abt going to school .Her face expression said it all. Mother talks to her son. Her son nods his head to what his mom told him and then immediately her elder son kisses his sister on her forehead and whispers something. The baby gal smiles. I wanted to see more of it but my cab started moving ahead. Probably mom gave some idea to her son to bring her daughter out of cranky mood is what I thought.

As my cab was moving ahead I saw a lady with uniform cleaning the roads, pushing all the fallen leaves n dust  on the road away with broom ...It looked like that was her daily duty and she would be paid for it. I also saw a van of school kids all in school uniform...I peeped into the van. This was the best, as I saw two kids in deep sleep in the van. One kid was snoring with mouth open. Among other kids three kids were playing among themselves with their hands, talking to each other .The other kid was with book open mugging up something. One more boy was busy looking outside the window. He looked at me all of a sudden. I smiled and waved him bye. He smiled too but no bye. May be he was too shy to wave a bye or maybe his parents might have warned not to be too friendly with strangers in a city which is actually good.

There we go, our cab stuck in between traffic. People were fed up waiting for traffic to get cleared. Frustration was seen on their face but I don’t know i was totally chilled out n all happy. All these tiny things that I was watching were making me happy. 

Now I could see a building construction that was going on through the window .How they load cement pull it up, and then unload the cement in it and again the process continues. Next inside my cab I could see a gal trying to pick eye lash fallen on her frens cheek n give it in her frens hands. Simultaneously, I could see people getting down their vehicles going at the side and bending down to get a peep of traffic as to when the traffic might get cleared. I could read frustration of waiting, on few people’s face.I observed a guy with his friend behind him on bike (He was calm probably was the only guy who was chilled out among many around who were totally frustrated of traffic) my cab moved a little front n now it stood next to another bus. Now i could see a gal in deep sleep inside the other bus near the window. I thought lucky gal who got fourty five extra mins to sleep in the bus bcos of traffic. ;) There was another gal in the same bus playing some game in her cell. There was a cartoon n some bridge kind of bars. All she had to do was make the cartoon jump over that bridge, one bridge after one...I could see she completed two levels and then my bus started moving again.

It started raining. The moment it started raining I cud see raindrops on my window n later it had covered all over the window pane. The lady who was in front seat of me closed the window as it started raining. I wanted to open it. When it started raining heavily i did open the window. I put my hand out. Tried to collect the rain drops but it’s difficult to do so, collecting rain water drops in hands is not an easy task.The gal who had closed the window turns back n looks at me. I gave her a smile. She could see me stretching both my hands out n playing in the rain...She smiles back at me n shifts to sum other seat.(I thought that was an indication that now I can open the window fully and enjoy the rain)By then the traffic was cleared n slowly my cab starts moving. Now i wanted to put my face out through the window and get it wet and i did it but not completely as i had to be aware of my one n only one head. Could not take a risk on that .Also that Wipro’s tiny little work was dependent on this head now. ;) Then came my office. Not to forget music was on all the way to keep me full on to observe all this.

I don’t know the reason but I had the best feeling that day. I felt Life is very beautiful and I am missing nothing in it. Every person on this earth can find happiness but just that only few people will happen to see it and rest are too busy looking at the negative side of life day to day. Life comes once, Love it and Live it.

I wonder why is it so.. ??!!

Every day and every moment I feel you by my side

Every now and every then I see you in my ride

Every minute I realize I miss you so

Every second I wonder why is it so

I think of you day and night

I want you to hold me tight

I think of you never leaving me

I want you to believe me

There’s no shine I see in the sun

There’s no light I see in the moon

There’s no love I feel within

There’s no joy I feel within

I feel you near

Hope someday you hear

I feel you close

Hope someday I never loose

"Paint and brush" the bricks at office ..!!!!

Guys and Gals,


First of all I would like to say this write-up may sound extreemely silly to few of you out there, For a very simple reason that this is just a piece of my happy moment and all it includes is only a paint and a brush.I am sorry if this disappoints you.


It was like any other normal day, as usual woke up late in the morning (as I work in shifts)and my eyes were shocked to see the clock that was displaying time as 10 A.M. I rubbed my eyes hard, hoping that I might have seen the wrong time on the clock and I may have few more hours to sleep.(I am a lazy bug ) But time doesn’t wait for me..It was really five mins past 10 AM and I had to make myself available at the cab pick up point at 11A.M sharp.So one more hour to go!!!!!!! I had to be fast.


There  I put, the Music on, at a high volume.I luv getting ready with  some of my fav songs  on) and  then its  Brush Brush Brush !!! Morning Shower  made  me fresh,all ready  for a New Day.Then its Dress up  !!!!  Its fun to pull out clothes out  of  my  messy wadrobe (For me its not to look my best  or not to fit into a perfect outfit  to office but I just dress up the way I feel happy.I found a  tee and then grabbed a jeans …Was ready in a go… combed my hair !!! Breakfast (I hate to eat  as I stay away from home ,the food  I eat always makes me miss my mom)  So Breakfast will be the only thing that I can keep as an option to skip among all  other morning activities…So its always at the end, I don’t mind skipping my breakfast if its too late.


I made it to the  cab on time and reached my office …Walk towards my tower from the gate is not very short.On my way towards my tower I noticed few painters  painting the  bricks that was kept as an edge across the greenary…They were painting it yellow to all the bricks and then they painted the alternate bricks black so that it looked like the yellow-black combo.I always had an urge to paint(not on the sheet of paper which we usually do during our school days) but on the walls like the real professional wall-painters.Never got a chance .The moment  I saw them, I wanted to join them and do it ,but my friend refused as we were employees. I went to my ODC being disappointed.  


Work kept me busy and engaged. I forgot my eagerness  to paint.It was time for lunch…..I had to go to cafeteria and again I could see these painters doing their job sincerely in the hot sun..This time they had almost completed close to half …But I could notice the pending half left for painting and was wondering If I could get a chance.In between the crowded  employees  I could hardly do it..I was willing to paint but my friend  said “If it was college I would have asked them to give u a chance,But since we are professional employees here ,you better not do this” .


I had my lunch with my buddies and then got stuck up with work again.The same evening my colleague got a call to collect a courier near the gate.I joined my colleague but my intention was mainly to watch these painters and try to grab a chance..On the way towards  the gate I could see three-fourth of painting was done.We went and collected the courier .On our way back I could not resist requesting myself for the paint brush from them.My colleague stood a far off from me, waiting for me  as she found it embarrassing  … I dint give a damn to people who were passing by..I jus was eager to paint ..thats all I knew. I requested the painter  “Can I please paint a little?” .He smiled at me and handed the paint brush and paint to me .I started to paint a block ( among many blocks of bricks).The painter was standing next to me and still smiling.I was too happy to sit and paint.People who were passing by just grinned at me .I continued to paint.Dint realize it until my colleague standing far away screamed “Hey gal !!!!! Have any plans to continue ur work in IT?, If so, then lets go to ODC.Come soon.”Once I completed painting  the entire block with yellow colour I gave the paint brush back in his hands and said a big “Thank you” with a lovely smile .

I completed painting  the entire block with yellow colour and u wont believe how HAPPY I was the entire Day !!!! This  may sound insane as painting jus a little is no biggggggg deal at all but the entire day I had a smile on my face and I could feel the joy from within me.Its just a tiny thing to feel too happy for.May be that’s why we say “Do what you love to do, as it can give u the kind of happiness  that u can feel”.All such small kind of joy means a lot to me anytime anyday. Thanks to the painter who gave me a chance. Never forget that there is  a life behind the busy schedule of attending phone calls and meetings , Give time for yourself  to do things that u love, as life comes only once ,live it to the fullest.

Need "U"

It was never the end
I know it changed
Why were u blind
To know the pain
If only u could understand
I wanted you to be here


Why don't you know
What made me this way
Why did you give up
Leaving me alone
If only u could understand
I wanted you to be here


Every moment i was here
I was screaming my heart out
I survived each day
Without any fear
If only u could understand
I wanted you to be here


I was fighting back
I was in pieces
Every single day
Was too long
If only u could understand
I wanted you to be here


U said u know it all
U said u will be near
U said u will never let my tear
If only u could understand
I wanted you to be here


I wish to bring u back
I wish to be the reason for ur smile
I wish to let you realise
I  still need you
If only u could understand
All I want is “YOU”

May be "I am lucky"!!

Heart  shattered being desperate for few words
Eyes insearch of those  who had  promised  "I am there for u"
Ears eager to hear  a "hi"
Arms wanting a hug
Heart  heavy in need of that shoulder where head could rest
Pain hidden but still continued the smile

Loneliness was killing around
As Loneliness became too long
Heart slowly fell in love with it and enjoyed it
Loneliness became  the best feeling  ever

Time taught where one stands
Time pointed spoken words that were never followed
Time showed  relationship may not stay forever
Time echoed the past that witnessed present 

It never hurts nor does it regret to see those faces
The same smiling faces that taught the lesson of life
Its happiness for all around that matters
Though heart misses a beat at times

Thats not the end!
As wonderful love was showered
Unspoken words cared
And there were hearts that wanted the pain to disappear
The ones who had never promised.

Now tellme what should be valued more
The unspoken words that cared or the spoken words that failed
Painful yet wonderful lesson of life
Which noticed  those few who held the hand!!
May be  "I am LUCKY";)

The Feel of RAIN DROPS !

There i was sitting in my cubicle in the ODC  jus like any other normal day.Suddenly the cell  on my desk makes a beep sound.I move my eyes away from my computer to  glance at my cell for a second.I could see i had received a message.With least interest i just try to see the senders name bcos usually i get only advertising messages very often.But to my surprise the message sender was my friend.She sits in the next cubicle to me.Before i opened the message i just stand up to peep into her cubicle.She was missing on her desk.I wondered what the message was about. I opened the message and it read "come outside,It may rain now."Not a second thought and within a moment my system was locked and there i was standing  outside my ODC near the lake view.The cool breeze,the cloudy weather,and many ppl waiting there desparately for it to drizzle.sounds funny but that is how it is here...because the temperature here is more than 40 degree everytime and rain is just like guest appearance here most of the times.

I too was one among the many  glancing at the sky.It was a weekday so few people went back to their ODC once they finished drinking a cup of coffee/tea.Few more people were out talking over the cellphone and hardly noticed the clouds or may be were not interested.Work was more important anyday.But not the same for me,i was still standing there outside looking at the sky..I could see the clouds moving and the sky all set to pour some drops.A guy who made his time outside for sometime  saw me standing there eagerly and said "Nice weather rite?",I said "yes". He stood  there for sometime watching the climate.He also said "Hope this climate continues"...I added saying "yes,hopefully".I was desperate for  rain drops.It was more than 15 minutes now and the crowd reduced...People lost patience and again went back to their work.The guy too moved away and before leaving he just told me "enjoy".I said "sure".May be he could read the excitement on my face.

After sometime, Finally it did rain,a lil drizzle on the earth, and there i was standing outside feeling the drops of rain,i jus moved my left hand  to feel it at first,It felt wow!! Remebered those days when me and my friends purposely forget umbrella just because it would be one reason to escape from blastings at home when we get drenched. I could recall every single memory i had with rain since my childhood.Also realised that this busy new life had made me miss all that now....There i was now feeling the drops thats about to touch the earth with both my hands.I bent little ahead and now the raindrops kissed my cheeks  and then the ground.I luved getting drenched after a long time.

It really feels great when u come out of ur work and make sum time for urself,live ur life the way u want to, just simply luv doing it most of the time.It may be jus for few minutes or seconds but it will be cherished ever.

Do Love your Loved Ones !

       At times  you might have felt you want everyone but nobody wants you.You also feel that you have lost everyone who are dear to you.Though you know very well that you don't have to be miserable for no reasons because you are damn sure that you have not done anything wrong and you know very well that  you deserve to be happy always but  you cant help it...There can be  people who understand you though you don't tell them and they try to pull you back to yourself very often...Treat such people as angels in your life because there are only a few of them. And also there are  people who can understand you completely but still they don't give a damn though they are your loved ones,this hurts to the core and it makes you feel that this is the worst phase of your life.Situation shows Human reality,Very True is what you feel.You may also feel why on the earth did you compromise so much for those people who can hardly understand all this and why do you still be with them and love them the same as before.Frankly speaking,even i don't know the answer for this..Maybe somewhere unknowingly we have compromised ourselves so much for their happiness that we still wait for them to turn and look back at us at least once and say "I am there with u". 


Just a small sentence from your loved ones can bring you back soon instead of ten sentences from people who are not close to you saying "Be Back to normal?","Whats wrong?","I hope things will get better soon".etc.etc.I know very well that i can put in an effort to make them realise but how until when ? This is something  you cannot force your loved ones  to understand until they realise it themselves.I feel giving an explanation to them about this  and then making them understand  is not worth.Never  mistake this as ego. Its just too much of compromises.But i have just one small question "When my loved ones can easily move on without getting hurt why cant I??"..Was the attachment only from my side that i am finding it so hard.Is it that easy to Let a person go far away.Not easy for me anytime .Still trying to figure out how is it for them!!!!



So Do Love your Loved Ones.Hug them tight when they need it,Respect their love and care shown towards you,Catch their hands when they are all alone.Be with them and make them smile!Never let them go!
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